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I update this thing way too much, but it honestly is my only vice these days.
Seriously....just fuck my life.
I'm in love with someone that I obviously cannot have.
I push everyone away when I'm feeling down and out.
I'm losing both of my best friends.
And I just feel like I'm in this horrible downward spiral, and I can't get a grip on anything.
I feel like I have a ton of things to appreciate, but I can't find any sort of feeling to put toward anything.
And I need to find myself, as well.
UGH.
Just, someone stop time, and give me the chance to sort things out before school starts. And then, make sure I never lose anyone I love.
I hate change. But I need to make some changes.
P.S. I don't think I've ever paced as much as I have in the past hour in my entire life. TOO MANY THOUGHTS.
Seriously....just fuck my life.
I'm in love with someone that I obviously cannot have.
I push everyone away when I'm feeling down and out.
I'm losing both of my best friends.
And I just feel like I'm in this horrible downward spiral, and I can't get a grip on anything.
I feel like I have a ton of things to appreciate, but I can't find any sort of feeling to put toward anything.
And I need to find myself, as well.
UGH.
Just, someone stop time, and give me the chance to sort things out before school starts. And then, make sure I never lose anyone I love.
I hate change. But I need to make some changes.
P.S. I don't think I've ever paced as much as I have in the past hour in my entire life. TOO MANY THOUGHTS.