I was dancing... and singing... in PUBLIC!!!
LFO - LFO (1999) and LFO - Life is Good (2002) are two excellent albums, even the emotional songs make me smile in some way.
Tonight I went for a walk through campus, actually I walked around it, took about an hour and thirty minutes. I was going to go into the new academic building, but with out a partner the adventure just lost its flavor, then I found my self walk over the "Little Mac". When I got the center I stopped and took a long hard look down, I tried to think about what would make some one jump from this height, and the more I tried the more I started thinking about things I have going FOR me and not AGAINST me. It was a shock but only one person came to mind and was all that I could think about, and I don't know, it was just a comforting thought.
After that I headed over to Kirkpatrick and sat outside my dorm window, thought about all the fun and shit that went on in that dorm room, then I walked to the other side and looked in the second floor window and all I could see was me letting Billie leave that last time with out kissing her goodbye, I actually saw it, and It was upsetting. OH!!! and they are remodeling the C-Store/Kliener also, I was surprised to see it closed and everything tore up.
Moving along I walked around the back way to parking lot D where I used to park my car my freshman year and walked to the middle of the huge empty parking lot, I sat on one of the grass islands and fiddled with my iPod, after making a playlist on the fly I started dancing my way back around the field house and through Laker Village and then home. Yes I was dancing out in public like a fool, I even tried doing the moonwalk in sandels, not a good idea. The cops kept coming around but that didn't stop me, they just let me go on my merry way. I don't know why I was jubulent, I don't REALLY have a reason to be this way, unless you count her, but then again part of me is and part of me isn't.
I guess by this post you can either tell I have delt with my rage or just supressed it. I am going to say a little of both. I talked to Jason for 3 hours on Wednesday night and it was pretty productive, though I felt foolish afterwards for actions I had taken earlier in the day, but I don't have to justify my actions this time like Jason said. And Nicole has taken a particular interest in my mood this week so I have opened to her a little bit.
Today was a good day at work, more hours are starting to come my way, and it was actually enjoyable to work there again, WHY? I dunno, but it just felt more important to be there today. Maybe cause it was Friday night and we were busy as sin with sold out shows for Wedding Crashers and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory accuring during every set tonight. It was just flat out fun to be there. I even did some work in the consession stand which is a place I try to avoid since leaving it, yea I was having that much fun.
My B-Day is in 2 weeks, should be fun.
Here I sit again trying to think of more to write to all of you, cause you all have a right to know how my life is, but just some things aren't ready to be said yet, or aren't mature enough to be told yet.
Looking forward to Saturday
Later days
MCP
Dev Nevot: My Sony burner is working itself too hard.
ipowers81: It wants to please you...
ipowers81: sexually
Dev Nevot: LOL
Tonight I went for a walk through campus, actually I walked around it, took about an hour and thirty minutes. I was going to go into the new academic building, but with out a partner the adventure just lost its flavor, then I found my self walk over the "Little Mac". When I got the center I stopped and took a long hard look down, I tried to think about what would make some one jump from this height, and the more I tried the more I started thinking about things I have going FOR me and not AGAINST me. It was a shock but only one person came to mind and was all that I could think about, and I don't know, it was just a comforting thought.
After that I headed over to Kirkpatrick and sat outside my dorm window, thought about all the fun and shit that went on in that dorm room, then I walked to the other side and looked in the second floor window and all I could see was me letting Billie leave that last time with out kissing her goodbye, I actually saw it, and It was upsetting. OH!!! and they are remodeling the C-Store/Kliener also, I was surprised to see it closed and everything tore up.
Moving along I walked around the back way to parking lot D where I used to park my car my freshman year and walked to the middle of the huge empty parking lot, I sat on one of the grass islands and fiddled with my iPod, after making a playlist on the fly I started dancing my way back around the field house and through Laker Village and then home. Yes I was dancing out in public like a fool, I even tried doing the moonwalk in sandels, not a good idea. The cops kept coming around but that didn't stop me, they just let me go on my merry way. I don't know why I was jubulent, I don't REALLY have a reason to be this way, unless you count her, but then again part of me is and part of me isn't.
I guess by this post you can either tell I have delt with my rage or just supressed it. I am going to say a little of both. I talked to Jason for 3 hours on Wednesday night and it was pretty productive, though I felt foolish afterwards for actions I had taken earlier in the day, but I don't have to justify my actions this time like Jason said. And Nicole has taken a particular interest in my mood this week so I have opened to her a little bit.
Today was a good day at work, more hours are starting to come my way, and it was actually enjoyable to work there again, WHY? I dunno, but it just felt more important to be there today. Maybe cause it was Friday night and we were busy as sin with sold out shows for Wedding Crashers and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory accuring during every set tonight. It was just flat out fun to be there. I even did some work in the consession stand which is a place I try to avoid since leaving it, yea I was having that much fun.
My B-Day is in 2 weeks, should be fun.
Here I sit again trying to think of more to write to all of you, cause you all have a right to know how my life is, but just some things aren't ready to be said yet, or aren't mature enough to be told yet.
Looking forward to Saturday
Later days
MCP
Dev Nevot: My Sony burner is working itself too hard.
ipowers81: It wants to please you...
ipowers81: sexually
Dev Nevot: LOL