I am soo very upset at bois!
why am I mad right now?
Cause I was on fucken gay.com again....
It is like the devil or something....
I should not let it get me depressed, but it does.
And to add to the problems, I found out the boy I was crushen out is like a lunatic and a user...
Well fuck me, just fuck me. It sucks....I had to be blessed with "big bones"...and not inbetween my legs...and for some reason I feel like I have to act like a big sissy fag...
Well that is not me!
I am tired of feeling like I have to be a big fake!
I am just Shane, I like bois, and I act like ME!
I am soo lonely girls....
I love Jason to death, we don't fight anymore, but I need him gone....
I think I can make it another semester though.
I want to meet a boy in this town. Just someone to go out with and do things with...is that too much to ask?
I need to get back into the groove of school.
I am taking more classes next semester....and spreading them out all over the day and night.
That way I can be at school the whole day, and take my mind off things.
I am taking a weight lifting class...and gonna swim afterwards...I am hoping that if I start looking better, I won't be soo depressed when I am alone all the time!
I don't want you all getting mushy on me....I hate that shit.
I need you as friends, but I close off and push people away when they want to be all helpy.
don't ask me why....I know this is a cry for help...but I just need you all to be there for me, when I come to you.
I will see you all tomorrow and Sunday....
Dani and Sara...
I will bring some Soda or something.....
I don't wanna stop typing.
I know that nothing made sense....but I feel a bit better!
I am gonna start writting again.
I need to...it makes me sane
It clears out my mind
I want my mom...
I wish I had her closer....I wish that I was still at KSU...I wish I still had Jason....
I wish I were really stable!
I wish I were not such a whiner.
I just want to be smart and professional
I have never gotten to be a kid!
I want to just be me
I am tired of being gay....I just want to like bois!
OMG...
That fuken ASG talk board really pissed me off...did you all read it?
Someone must die!
Ok...soo sue me if I don't believe in the WORD HOMOPHOBIA....
but there is something OBVIOSLY WRONG with this campus!
Well jason is fucken screaming at me to give him teh fuken computer back...like he doesn't have all weekend to do his shit.
I wish I had someplace to go....
Noone can call me cause the computer is on....
and Jason hates it when random people show up.
I am gonna go cry now...I feel like I could cry for a long time....but I know that I won't...I never can let myself cry.
I have those 4 Sublimes left...I might go drink by myself in my room....
C is over at Dusti's...she lives right next door...I would go over there...but I don't want to impose!
I will be better once I sleep!
Cause I was on fucken gay.com again....
It is like the devil or something....
I should not let it get me depressed, but it does.
And to add to the problems, I found out the boy I was crushen out is like a lunatic and a user...
Well fuck me, just fuck me. It sucks....I had to be blessed with "big bones"...and not inbetween my legs...and for some reason I feel like I have to act like a big sissy fag...
Well that is not me!
I am tired of feeling like I have to be a big fake!
I am just Shane, I like bois, and I act like ME!
I am soo lonely girls....
I love Jason to death, we don't fight anymore, but I need him gone....
I think I can make it another semester though.
I want to meet a boy in this town. Just someone to go out with and do things with...is that too much to ask?
I need to get back into the groove of school.
I am taking more classes next semester....and spreading them out all over the day and night.
That way I can be at school the whole day, and take my mind off things.
I am taking a weight lifting class...and gonna swim afterwards...I am hoping that if I start looking better, I won't be soo depressed when I am alone all the time!
I don't want you all getting mushy on me....I hate that shit.
I need you as friends, but I close off and push people away when they want to be all helpy.
don't ask me why....I know this is a cry for help...but I just need you all to be there for me, when I come to you.
I will see you all tomorrow and Sunday....
Dani and Sara...
I will bring some Soda or something.....
I don't wanna stop typing.
I know that nothing made sense....but I feel a bit better!
I am gonna start writting again.
I need to...it makes me sane
It clears out my mind
I want my mom...
I wish I had her closer....I wish that I was still at KSU...I wish I still had Jason....
I wish I were really stable!
I wish I were not such a whiner.
I just want to be smart and professional
I have never gotten to be a kid!
I want to just be me
I am tired of being gay....I just want to like bois!
OMG...
That fuken ASG talk board really pissed me off...did you all read it?
Someone must die!
Ok...soo sue me if I don't believe in the WORD HOMOPHOBIA....
but there is something OBVIOSLY WRONG with this campus!
Well jason is fucken screaming at me to give him teh fuken computer back...like he doesn't have all weekend to do his shit.
I wish I had someplace to go....
Noone can call me cause the computer is on....
and Jason hates it when random people show up.
I am gonna go cry now...I feel like I could cry for a long time....but I know that I won't...I never can let myself cry.
I have those 4 Sublimes left...I might go drink by myself in my room....
C is over at Dusti's...she lives right next door...I would go over there...but I don't want to impose!
I will be better once I sleep!