Exciting
Wow this is so exciting im so pissed off right now i just want to fucking punch just about almost every girls face well the ones i dont like and one very impaticular girl. I really dont care about anything right now well i care about one thing that is keeping me from going over the edge im so glad i have him. Im glad that he is really sweet but doesnt say things to make me fall for him. But so yeah its good life is ok. Today was realy fucking gay though i almost lost my temper out on my friends it was pretty gay they kind of got a little freaked out but they know i have alot of stress on my hands so they werent mad or anything and at least i only threw the phone at the wall instead of at them. My best friend can be so bitchy and complainy sometimes it kind of makes me mad but i get over it cause eventually we always have fun right lauren. Yeah lauren is like my best friend she knows exactly how i am and doesnt care actually she kind of made me the way i am sometimes but i dont mind it.Wow there are so many things i want to say to some people right now but im just keeping it all to myself. This is gay im writing in here for no fucking reason i dont even so what the fucking point is of me having a fucking journal oh well i guess its so at least i can fucking say what i want to say on here its way fucking better then writing in some stupid notebook "journal" but yeah oh well im over it no one reads this anyways, but its all good i dont care im like just talking to myself nayways everything i say to anyone no one listens its pretty fucking stupid, fucking a ive used fucking way to many times but i guess its really the only word i like to use when im pissed so yeah but anyways well i hate lots of people right now and you know what from now on i think im going to start showing how i feel more often im not going to let people walk all over me. wel im going to bed now cause i havent gotten much sleep in a while its stupid and pointless but whatever. Oh yeah wow last night was freaky i had a dream about him and i dont even know why its gay but yeah. well if you read this but which im pretty sure you wont then im sorry og yeah and im over like all that stuff and i hope you are too and im sorry to for falling so hard for all thoughs words but im over it now. and well i hope we can be friends now for reals. well im really going now.