I think things bother me too much

[mclenins]

Just spoke to Hollie on the phone. Still worried about her, she doesn't sound happy at all. All I want to do is cheer her up, but I cant think of anything to do to make her laugh or anything. It was good when she did laugh but when she did all I could think of was that I really wanted the cause of it to be me. In a way I felt jealous. I'm really confused about that, and I just feel poo now. And I feel silly because I really shouldn't be bothered by it and I should be glad that something cheered her up, but I'm not.

Argh my head hurts. =(