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I've been paralised by fear I've decided today!
Walking home from Town with my best friend, we were chatting about my flaws...and the things that bother me.
Ever since my last relationship I've been fucked up.
Like I can't trust someone I love, I believe I do trust him, I know i do. But I don't trust anyone else.
I wish there was a way everything in the past can be erased, I wish I didn't always have this huge cloud dangling above my head. I wish I wasn't so careless with my words.
Im up and down like a pogo stick.
Works been great this past week!! Considering my fav person there wasn't in.
Nick got a perm job =] I'm so proud of him!!
Things seem to be either going fine or going shit around me, I cant do right for doing wrong.
People seem to change like the weather, other people just walk in and out your life when they choose, others probs don't even remember your name.
Seeing three people today I used to be Such good friends with, but not saying hardly a word to them today made me think "What the hell is going wrong!?"
I had a conversation with Joe, we were going fine till his friend appeared n neither of us could utter a word, or we'd repeat what we said.
I daren't speak to Graeme or Dan without fear they'd look at me wierd cos none of us were drunk.
So much is spinning round and round in my head. I can't even come to terms with what im thinking.
I sometimes sit here and think, "I wish I could have a reunion with every single person I've met in my life, see how they've changed, see who they've become" but then again I'd try kick the shit outta half of them, then that leads me to my next question...Do i push people away? or do they decide to drop me time and time again?
I'm scared the past will repeat itself.
Paralised by my fears.
I need to sort myself out.
Next weekend is gonna be the DON!!!
Friday - Liquid with Emmy. I hate liquid, its her company im there for =] cos Emmy drunk is like watching Lee Evans live. SO FUNNY!
Saturday - Emmy's party. Another fucking amazing event. Full of random people, full of new friends to make!
I took a quiz seeing as I need to occupy myself.
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Favorite Pop:
Dr.Pepper
Favorite fruit:
Apple.
Favorite season:
Winter
Like someone:
Nick.
Want more piercings:
I do actually. But i've never figured out what.
Want a tattoo:
Another please!! I hope to have at least 4 by the time im like 25.
Last text:
About 20mins ago.
Blue or red?:
Red
Spring or Fall?:
Fall
Random stuff:
Do you speak a different language?:
Jibberish and Chav language when im drunk haha.
Do you have any pets?
2 Dogs.
Mood?
Tired. Bored. Worried. Paranoid.
Which is Better With The Opposite Sex?
Cute or hot:
Hot.
Lips or Eyes:
Eyes
Hugs or Kisses:
Hugs
Short or Tall:
Tall
Easygoing or serious:
Easygoing
Romantic or Spontaneous:
Both
Muscular or Skinny:
Muscular, but not too muscly..turn offfff.
Hook-up or Relationship:
Relationship
Sweet or Caring:
Both
Have You Ever:
Kissed a stranger?:
Nope.
Drank bubbles?
Nope
Lost glasses/contacts?
nope.
Got an X-ray and on what?
Teeth.
Broken Someones Heart?
Apparently...
Had your heart broken?
Too many times.
Cried When Someone Died:
Ofc.
Cried At School and why?
Oh god...too many times for too many reasons!
Do you believe in:
God:
Idk tbh!
Miracles:
Idk...
Love at first sight?
Fuck no!
Ghosts:
Yes
Aliens:
Kinda.
Magic:
Some.
Heaven:
Yeah
Hell:
Yes
Kissing on The First Date:
Yeah.
Horoscopes:
Sometimes.
TOP 3 (NEW VERSION)
PIZZA TOPPINGS
1. Pepperoni
2. Pepperoni
3. Pepperoni
CHILDREN'S SHOWS
1. Spongebob Squarepants
2. Moomins
3. Tom and Jerry
SMELLS
1. Nicks Aftershave
2. Decent smelling perfume
3. Pizza
COLOURS
1. Red
2. Blue
3. Pink
FLOWERS
1. White or Pink roses
2. Snowdrops
3. Tulips.
KINDS OF WEATHER
1. Snow
2. Warm weather, but not toooo hot.
3. Full raging thunder storms when Im safe in my duvet being hugged =]
WORDS
1. Shit
2. Sex
3. Food hahaaaa
THINGS TO DO AT HOME
1. Lounge around in my Nike joggers watching dvds
2. go online.
3. sleeeep!
INSULTS
1. CUNT!!!
2. Fucking Sket
3. DON VITO......idk how its an insult, but yesss.
PLACES TO HANG OUT
1. Anywhere with nick.
2. Brighton
3. Pubs
INSTRUMENTS
1. Drums
2. Guitar
3. Triangle...gotta be a pro to play that! lawl.
BOOKS
1. I
2. hate
3. reading
HOLIDAYS
1. Christmas
2. My birthday
3. Easter
BANDS
1. Bring me the Horizon
2. Alseana
3. Thrice
MOVIES
1. Fight Club
2. Kidulthood
3. Bad Boys II
ANIMALS
1. Duck
2. Dogs
3. Rabbits
GIRL NAMES
1. Marissa
2. Chloe
3. Skye
BOY NAMES
1. Lewis
2. Scott
3. Jamie
FOODS
1. Pizza
2. Pasta
3. Chicken
TV SHOWS
1. The OC
2. Dads Army
3. Footballers Wives
ICE CREAM FLAVORS
1. Cookie Dough
2. Mint Choc Chip
3. Chocolate
LETTERS
1. E
2. T
3. N
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1. Height?
5'8
2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
No
3. Do you own a gun?
No
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
I always do!
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
YUMM!!
7. What's your favorite Christmas song??
*shrugs*
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Ice cold ribena =]
9. Can you do push ups?
I can, but not many.
10. Is your bathroom clean?
Always is.
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
My skull necklace.
12. Do you like painkillers?
Yeah. They help!
13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
My eyes apparently, but my brain hauls them in with a fishing rod...literally.
14. Do you have A.D.D.?
No
16. Middle Name?
Jayne
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
1. Nicks at a party he promised me he wouldnt go to =[
2. Work monday
3. Missing loads of people.
18. Name the last 3 things you have last bought?
1. Ticket to London.
2. Drink
3. Cosmopoliton
Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
1- Water
2- Ribena
3- Coke
22. Current worry?
Nick at the party.
23. Current hate?
So many people!
24. Favorite place to be?
Anywhere with Nick. If i had my way i'd be in New York =]
25. How did you bring in the New Year?
Round Bens drunk with nick etc.
26. Where would you like to go?
New York and Orange County plz.
27. Do you own slippers?
Yeah
28. What shirt are you wearing?
Famous Stars and Straps one!
29. Do you burn or tan?
Burn baby burrrrn!
30. What are your favorite colors?
Blue, Red, Pink, Black, White
31. Would you be a pirate?
Would be well fun =]
33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
None
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
A monster.
36. What's in your pockets?
Nothing
37. Best bed sheets as a child?
Barbie!!
38. Worst injury you've ever had?
Umm, probs my knee problems, orrrr walking into a post at School, if i had done that now i could sue my school for millions!!!
40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
4
41. Who is your loudest friend?
Nick.
42. Who is your most silent friend?
Umm, Emily probs
43. Does someone have a crush on you?
Apparently...but i believe not.
44. Do u wish on shooting stars?
I do yes.
45. What is your favorite book?
Scribbleboy!!!!! Actually better than your face.
46. What is your favorite candy?
Anything really.
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
Dont mind.
48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
I did want Nothing Else matters by Metallica...
49. What were you doing @ 12 AM last night?
In the pub.
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
Cant be arsed to wake up!
Walking home from Town with my best friend, we were chatting about my flaws...and the things that bother me.
Ever since my last relationship I've been fucked up.
Like I can't trust someone I love, I believe I do trust him, I know i do. But I don't trust anyone else.
I wish there was a way everything in the past can be erased, I wish I didn't always have this huge cloud dangling above my head. I wish I wasn't so careless with my words.
Im up and down like a pogo stick.
Works been great this past week!! Considering my fav person there wasn't in.
Nick got a perm job =] I'm so proud of him!!
Things seem to be either going fine or going shit around me, I cant do right for doing wrong.
People seem to change like the weather, other people just walk in and out your life when they choose, others probs don't even remember your name.
Seeing three people today I used to be Such good friends with, but not saying hardly a word to them today made me think "What the hell is going wrong!?"
I had a conversation with Joe, we were going fine till his friend appeared n neither of us could utter a word, or we'd repeat what we said.
I daren't speak to Graeme or Dan without fear they'd look at me wierd cos none of us were drunk.
So much is spinning round and round in my head. I can't even come to terms with what im thinking.
I sometimes sit here and think, "I wish I could have a reunion with every single person I've met in my life, see how they've changed, see who they've become" but then again I'd try kick the shit outta half of them, then that leads me to my next question...Do i push people away? or do they decide to drop me time and time again?
I'm scared the past will repeat itself.
Paralised by my fears.
I need to sort myself out.
Next weekend is gonna be the DON!!!
Friday - Liquid with Emmy. I hate liquid, its her company im there for =] cos Emmy drunk is like watching Lee Evans live. SO FUNNY!
Saturday - Emmy's party. Another fucking amazing event. Full of random people, full of new friends to make!
I took a quiz seeing as I need to occupy myself.
--------------------
Favorite Pop:
Dr.Pepper
Favorite fruit:
Apple.
Favorite season:
Winter
Like someone:
Nick.
Want more piercings:
I do actually. But i've never figured out what.
Want a tattoo:
Another please!! I hope to have at least 4 by the time im like 25.
Last text:
About 20mins ago.
Blue or red?:
Red
Spring or Fall?:
Fall
Random stuff:
Do you speak a different language?:
Jibberish and Chav language when im drunk haha.
Do you have any pets?
2 Dogs.
Mood?
Tired. Bored. Worried. Paranoid.
Which is Better With The Opposite Sex?
Cute or hot:
Hot.
Lips or Eyes:
Eyes
Hugs or Kisses:
Hugs
Short or Tall:
Tall
Easygoing or serious:
Easygoing
Romantic or Spontaneous:
Both
Muscular or Skinny:
Muscular, but not too muscly..turn offfff.
Hook-up or Relationship:
Relationship
Sweet or Caring:
Both
Have You Ever:
Kissed a stranger?:
Nope.
Drank bubbles?
Nope
Lost glasses/contacts?
nope.
Got an X-ray and on what?
Teeth.
Broken Someones Heart?
Apparently...
Had your heart broken?
Too many times.
Cried When Someone Died:
Ofc.
Cried At School and why?
Oh god...too many times for too many reasons!
Do you believe in:
God:
Idk tbh!
Miracles:
Idk...
Love at first sight?
Fuck no!
Ghosts:
Yes
Aliens:
Kinda.
Magic:
Some.
Heaven:
Yeah
Hell:
Yes
Kissing on The First Date:
Yeah.
Horoscopes:
Sometimes.
TOP 3 (NEW VERSION)
PIZZA TOPPINGS
1. Pepperoni
2. Pepperoni
3. Pepperoni
CHILDREN'S SHOWS
1. Spongebob Squarepants
2. Moomins
3. Tom and Jerry
SMELLS
1. Nicks Aftershave
2. Decent smelling perfume
3. Pizza
COLOURS
1. Red
2. Blue
3. Pink
FLOWERS
1. White or Pink roses
2. Snowdrops
3. Tulips.
KINDS OF WEATHER
1. Snow
2. Warm weather, but not toooo hot.
3. Full raging thunder storms when Im safe in my duvet being hugged =]
WORDS
1. Shit
2. Sex
3. Food hahaaaa
THINGS TO DO AT HOME
1. Lounge around in my Nike joggers watching dvds
2. go online.
3. sleeeep!
INSULTS
1. CUNT!!!
2. Fucking Sket
3. DON VITO......idk how its an insult, but yesss.
PLACES TO HANG OUT
1. Anywhere with nick.
2. Brighton
3. Pubs
INSTRUMENTS
1. Drums
2. Guitar
3. Triangle...gotta be a pro to play that! lawl.
BOOKS
1. I
2. hate
3. reading
HOLIDAYS
1. Christmas
2. My birthday
3. Easter
BANDS
1. Bring me the Horizon
2. Alseana
3. Thrice
MOVIES
1. Fight Club
2. Kidulthood
3. Bad Boys II
ANIMALS
1. Duck
2. Dogs
3. Rabbits
GIRL NAMES
1. Marissa
2. Chloe
3. Skye
BOY NAMES
1. Lewis
2. Scott
3. Jamie
FOODS
1. Pizza
2. Pasta
3. Chicken
TV SHOWS
1. The OC
2. Dads Army
3. Footballers Wives
ICE CREAM FLAVORS
1. Cookie Dough
2. Mint Choc Chip
3. Chocolate
LETTERS
1. E
2. T
3. N
------
1. Height?
5'8
2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
No
3. Do you own a gun?
No
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
I always do!
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
YUMM!!
7. What's your favorite Christmas song??
*shrugs*
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Ice cold ribena =]
9. Can you do push ups?
I can, but not many.
10. Is your bathroom clean?
Always is.
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
My skull necklace.
12. Do you like painkillers?
Yeah. They help!
13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
My eyes apparently, but my brain hauls them in with a fishing rod...literally.
14. Do you have A.D.D.?
No
16. Middle Name?
Jayne
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
1. Nicks at a party he promised me he wouldnt go to =[
2. Work monday
3. Missing loads of people.
18. Name the last 3 things you have last bought?
1. Ticket to London.
2. Drink
3. Cosmopoliton
Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
1- Water
2- Ribena
3- Coke
22. Current worry?
Nick at the party.
23. Current hate?
So many people!
24. Favorite place to be?
Anywhere with Nick. If i had my way i'd be in New York =]
25. How did you bring in the New Year?
Round Bens drunk with nick etc.
26. Where would you like to go?
New York and Orange County plz.
27. Do you own slippers?
Yeah
28. What shirt are you wearing?
Famous Stars and Straps one!
29. Do you burn or tan?
Burn baby burrrrn!
30. What are your favorite colors?
Blue, Red, Pink, Black, White
31. Would you be a pirate?
Would be well fun =]
33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
None
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
A monster.
36. What's in your pockets?
Nothing
37. Best bed sheets as a child?
Barbie!!
38. Worst injury you've ever had?
Umm, probs my knee problems, orrrr walking into a post at School, if i had done that now i could sue my school for millions!!!
40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
4
41. Who is your loudest friend?
Nick.
42. Who is your most silent friend?
Umm, Emily probs
43. Does someone have a crush on you?
Apparently...but i believe not.
44. Do u wish on shooting stars?
I do yes.
45. What is your favorite book?
Scribbleboy!!!!! Actually better than your face.
46. What is your favorite candy?
Anything really.
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
Dont mind.
48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
I did want Nothing Else matters by Metallica...
49. What were you doing @ 12 AM last night?
In the pub.
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
Cant be arsed to wake up!