Fic: Nothing of Anything
Pairing: McShep
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Author's Notes: This was written for sga_santa for girlgonemadd, originally posted here, with the request for ‘Rodney/John with lots of angst/humor/silliness/etc and well-rounded appearances by all the cast.’ I went with angst. Be prepared for a lot of it. The title comes from a quote by Samuel Johnson, “A man may be so much of everything, that he is nothing of anything.”
Also, Livejournal isn't letting me post more than a few thousand words at a time so this will be posted in 7 parts rather than 2. Just follow the links, it's all there.
Betas: michelel72 , without whom this fic would be incomprehensible, and momma_66 , whose encouragement and cheerleading kept me going when all seemed lost. I can’t thank you both enough.
Warnings: The request said no character death, and while I do not feel I truly crossed that line, I definitely more than toed it. I apologize to the recipient if I went too far. This story contains issues of identity and self-perception that I consider to border on brainwashing. One aspect of this is gender, but I would like to stress that this is in no way meant to represent a transgender experience. Also, this is a very grim take on a common trope that is usually written as crack. A willing suspension of disbelief is necessary, dear readers.
Summary: ‘He wasn’t sure of his past anymore and everyone around him was the same as they had always been. It was getting so hard to see the dividing line between universes.’
Word Count: 17,000
Nothing of Anything