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Jun 13, 2004 18:33

rawr... what day: so far. then again all of my days are. goodness just wait until marching band practices start up and i see everyone again and i make friends with the freshies (maybe?). then i'll be happy, because it's just one of those things that when i'm there, i'm so happy.

anyways, enough of that. danny boy was different today. but maybe it was just me *shrug* he really is such a sweetheart, i'm tellin you. i was talking to aubree, and he comes up behind me and gives me a half-hug (haha.. half-hug...) and asked me how i was. maybe he was thinking about when i told him i needed to talk to him... i donno. but so then i was blockin the table for registration or whatever, and he's like "no really, how are you?" and... and he had to leave for bible quizzing in somewhere... so... i had to deal with aubree and jon by myself :'( wahhh

that's the last time i sit with them alone, i'm telling you what. they drove me absolutley nutty. i'd rather have sat by myself and actually listened to what pastor marty had to say (good sermon today, though). they just... argh. of course aubree thinks i'm a flippin hypocrite because i'm not happy with what i got. wait, rewind, i AM. i'm thankful for the house i live in, that i have 2 married parents, i have a sister and brother who annoy me at times (ok a lot... but that's sibling love for ya), i'm thankful for the friends i have. and i'm a hypocrite? no, i'm just a bitter, jealous, anti-relationship chic. yes i like that... has a nice ring.

it makes me not even want a boyfriend, though. because i dont want to be who i see a lot. although i really wouldn't mind having a boyfriend, it'd be nice. i just dont want to be the worst of things like i feel like aubree is because i think she can do better than the personality-less boy she "loves". i really am bitter... aren't i?

oh well. i'm listening to savage garden b/c i found it in my long lost cd collection. it reminds me of sarah though and her homophobia. because this year's prom theme or whatever was "truly, madly, deeply" by them. and she thought it was funny because they were gay guys. i was like "so?" and she was like "i just think it's wrong". she always thought it was wrong. wait, no she didn't. she supported my theory for my english paper which was a research paper on homosexuals and that i supported it. but then 3 weeks down the road she changed her mind?

what really makes me angry though is how christians are supposed to think it's wrong, and that it's against the bible. if that's the case i might as well not go to church. and sure i have danny boy is homophobic but he's different. i've stated it before so i wont again.

well i thoroughly enjoyed writing that. i feel a bit better. i'll just wait for my mum to get home with food from yummy skyline ^_^ (it's skyline time!) hehe.
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