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So...my Gran passed away suddenly lastnight. She was 66 and really rather unwell, but a urine infection took over and she didn't make it out.
We had a very strange relationship. She was a very unstable woman who feared death more than anything else, so in a way I'm glad it was sudden, because she wouldn't have coped if she had known she was going to die. The fact that we didn't see each other for years until my graduation last year all melted away when my mum told me...doesn't stop you grieving for a person who you ultimately loved and wished you had a better relationship with. I suppose my relationship with her was different to my brothers and sister because I'm the oldest and I lived with her when I was a baby (with mum and dad) and we were very close for years...unfortunately it all sort of...got a bit messy over the last 10 years but who am I to judge.
I'm gonna go to mum and dads and try and comfort them as best I can...my mums mum died when mum was 18, and I think I was the only child to meet her dad...dads dad passed when Andrew/James (not sure) was still a baby and now dads mum.
We had a lovely time the last time we were together, she made such an effort to make it a good night. She bought me a gift for the first time in years and she even got on amazingly with James. Shame all she asked me for over the last 6 years was an invite to my wedding whenever it happens...
I feel sad today.
We had a very strange relationship. She was a very unstable woman who feared death more than anything else, so in a way I'm glad it was sudden, because she wouldn't have coped if she had known she was going to die. The fact that we didn't see each other for years until my graduation last year all melted away when my mum told me...doesn't stop you grieving for a person who you ultimately loved and wished you had a better relationship with. I suppose my relationship with her was different to my brothers and sister because I'm the oldest and I lived with her when I was a baby (with mum and dad) and we were very close for years...unfortunately it all sort of...got a bit messy over the last 10 years but who am I to judge.
I'm gonna go to mum and dads and try and comfort them as best I can...my mums mum died when mum was 18, and I think I was the only child to meet her dad...dads dad passed when Andrew/James (not sure) was still a baby and now dads mum.
We had a lovely time the last time we were together, she made such an effort to make it a good night. She bought me a gift for the first time in years and she even got on amazingly with James. Shame all she asked me for over the last 6 years was an invite to my wedding whenever it happens...
I feel sad today.