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So, I didn't get the job. In a way I'm not surprised, it's a pretty high profile position and as much as they liked my presentation, when I thought about things I said and questions they asked, I doubt they thought I could handle the job, which I could, but not a call for me to make.
Doesn't take a lot for me to feel like I'm sliding into a dark hole.
Now, I'm stuck in a job I don't wanna be in anymore, hardly see my friends which I HATE! Not having friends in the town you live in, even though you've lived there your whole life, is pretty damn sad. If people hadn't taken sides when Kellie and I fell out 1.5 years ago then I would still have friends...not that they took sides, they knew what she did was awful and that I was in the right, but because she was so unstable they felt they had to be friends with her over me...
I really can't face going to work today now...
What am I going to do? I'd hoped it would be a way out, a way into something I would enjoy more now, it's more where I am in my life...I hate my job. Hate the shifts, hate so many people being about all the time and it's starting to affect how I work with clients which is not cool.
I don't know what else I could do, I'm not good at other things.
Doesn't take a lot for me to feel like I'm sliding into a dark hole.
Now, I'm stuck in a job I don't wanna be in anymore, hardly see my friends which I HATE! Not having friends in the town you live in, even though you've lived there your whole life, is pretty damn sad. If people hadn't taken sides when Kellie and I fell out 1.5 years ago then I would still have friends...not that they took sides, they knew what she did was awful and that I was in the right, but because she was so unstable they felt they had to be friends with her over me...
I really can't face going to work today now...
What am I going to do? I'd hoped it would be a way out, a way into something I would enjoy more now, it's more where I am in my life...I hate my job. Hate the shifts, hate so many people being about all the time and it's starting to affect how I work with clients which is not cool.
I don't know what else I could do, I'm not good at other things.