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I haven't seen him now in two days and I really still feel like total crap. I've stopped with the spontaneous tears of 'OMG MY LIFE IS OVER I GOT DUMPED'. Now I just feel this swirling anxiety in my stomach sometimes. Mostly when I'm not occupied enough. I don't even know if I have been dumped, to tell you the truth. I just got 'I need space' message. He took all of our 'couple'esque photos down off of myspace. ...and replaced them with pictures of his cat.
I guess that should really tell me everything.
Then last night he starts randomly sending me text messages. Transcribed:
Mat: I never gave you that game.
Me: Yeah?
Mat: Why the ?
Me: I was just wondering why you brought it up.
Mat: Cause I thought of it.
Me: We'll play it sometime.
Mat: I know you don't have internet that's why I wanted to give it to you.
Me: We got it back today. But thanks. I have class in the morning and I need to get some sleep. Love you a lot. Good night.
Mat: Glad you can do your gaming.
Mat: I almost invited you over. Cause I though you were unable to roleplay.
Me: I want to come over, but not for roleplay or computers or games. To see you.
Mat: You have mail from my parents.
Me: I can come pick it up whenever you want.
Mat: I want to open it!
Me: No way!
Mat: Oh yes I will.
Me: Noooo. I wanna. :(
And then radio silence.
What the fuck. The guy who didn't want me to open my laptop when he was around, or roleplay or talk to people on the phone or on AIM. Is suddenly so concerned with my ability to roleplay that he almost invited me over even though he needs space. And nice dodge on his part where he avoided my response to him.
I just wish that he if he didn't want to date me that he'd just stop fucking talking to me. Because I really can't handle it.
I should have never told him that I wanted to see him at all. I should have told him to leave me alone at the first text message.
I guess that should really tell me everything.
Then last night he starts randomly sending me text messages. Transcribed:
Mat: I never gave you that game.
Me: Yeah?
Mat: Why the ?
Me: I was just wondering why you brought it up.
Mat: Cause I thought of it.
Me: We'll play it sometime.
Mat: I know you don't have internet that's why I wanted to give it to you.
Me: We got it back today. But thanks. I have class in the morning and I need to get some sleep. Love you a lot. Good night.
Mat: Glad you can do your gaming.
Mat: I almost invited you over. Cause I though you were unable to roleplay.
Me: I want to come over, but not for roleplay or computers or games. To see you.
Mat: You have mail from my parents.
Me: I can come pick it up whenever you want.
Mat: I want to open it!
Me: No way!
Mat: Oh yes I will.
Me: Noooo. I wanna. :(
And then radio silence.
What the fuck. The guy who didn't want me to open my laptop when he was around, or roleplay or talk to people on the phone or on AIM. Is suddenly so concerned with my ability to roleplay that he almost invited me over even though he needs space. And nice dodge on his part where he avoided my response to him.
I just wish that he if he didn't want to date me that he'd just stop fucking talking to me. Because I really can't handle it.
I should have never told him that I wanted to see him at all. I should have told him to leave me alone at the first text message.