Do I really?
I had a performance project today in my Intermediate Acting class. This was a self/anti-self project which is pretty self explanatory, but for those of you who know me...you know I just have to explain it anyway.
We first do a 2 minute solo scene where we "act" naturally. We perform something that we do in our every day lives. Then, removing all habitual movements and thoughts, we become our anti-self and perform the same thing again.
After the 6 people performed today, myself included, we sat in a circle and discussed what people saw. When we started talking about me a few people brought up some of my habitual things that I never really thought about before. Do I really cross my legs EVERY time I sit down? Do I really laugh at EVERYTHING even when it isn't funny? Do I really have a little smirk thing? I'm so self conscious now its making me sick!
On a side note, I called a therapist yesterday at about 2pm and left a message about setting up an appointment...its now almost 8:00 the next day and they still haven't called me back...WHAT IF I WERE SUICIDAL!!!!
Anyway, Wizard of Oz rehearsal again tonight...its going...well.
We first do a 2 minute solo scene where we "act" naturally. We perform something that we do in our every day lives. Then, removing all habitual movements and thoughts, we become our anti-self and perform the same thing again.
After the 6 people performed today, myself included, we sat in a circle and discussed what people saw. When we started talking about me a few people brought up some of my habitual things that I never really thought about before. Do I really cross my legs EVERY time I sit down? Do I really laugh at EVERYTHING even when it isn't funny? Do I really have a little smirk thing? I'm so self conscious now its making me sick!
On a side note, I called a therapist yesterday at about 2pm and left a message about setting up an appointment...its now almost 8:00 the next day and they still haven't called me back...WHAT IF I WERE SUICIDAL!!!!
Anyway, Wizard of Oz rehearsal again tonight...its going...well.