Satisfied Saturday 6
May 30, 2009
Capricorn (12/22-1/19)
Buying things to make yourself feel better might provide temporary fulfillment, but whatever you're trying to distract yourself from isn't going away any time soon! You can't sacrifice your bank account in an attempt to give yourself retail therapy. Instead, focus on being grounded in reality. Face whatever (or whomever) you are trying to avoid. Until you do this, you will never find the peace of mind you deserve. You are not the bad guy (or gal) here.
Crap. And you know, when I woke up and was trying to figure out what I wanted to do today, the first thing I thought of was retail therapy. (That was before I read this!) Then again, I sholdn't spend that much time on my feet either, let alone bust up my bank account. *sigh*
EDIT 5 hours later: I went back to bed and then went shopping anyway! LOL!
Satisfied Saturday Six.
The Fabulous Friday Five (and Satisfied Saturday 6) is about taking the time to focus on the good things. Post 5 (or 6) things that made you smile during the week. It doesn't matter if it happened to you, in the news or to someone else. Just put aside the negative for a moment and share pleasure. Because happiness and smiles are precious and balance the world.
Bonus: Name one thing you did well this week.
1. It was a short work week. It felt really long, but in reality it was short.
2. Even though I managed to spill half my meds in my car, I still had enough left to take when I needed them. And I also got a reality check fromf riends that there's nothing wrong with taking them!
3. I made up with Jeanette. We'd had a fight last weekend, and mostly made it up by the next day, but it was stil unresolved. On Wednesday we sorted it all out completely.
4. I went to the doctor yesterday after work, and even though it was, as usual, a really long wait. It was so good to see her. I don't get to see this doc that often, but we always enjoy the visits. I cherish the opportunity to say how much I like my doctors. The funny thing is, the very first time I saw her, I fought with her. I challenged her and told her I needed her to really listen to me. Ever since then we have had a great relationship, and I always feel like I have covered allt he ground we need to (and more!) when I'm there. Every year she remembers me by name and we talk like old friends who are working on a project together. Chatty, friendly, but serious and focused on the task.
5. I got around to watching Brave New Voices and was absolutely blown away. The final two episodes didn't record correctly, so I'm trying again this week, but... man. I had just spent a few days wondering to myself where all my poetry has gone, and how long was I going to stay choked up. This documentary unblocked me. Thank goodness.
6. I started something last weekend, that I promised to tell you about. It's something I've been meaning to do for a while, but never formulated the right idea for execution. Now that I've done it, I'm regretting that I didn't do it before. Basically, it's a scrapbook - but not like you guys are doing with crafts. It's a scrapbook like you keep for memories. Remember, I've been afraid that I would lose my mental faculties and start forgetting things and who I am and what matters and all. All my life, I've saved bits and pieces from newspapers and magazines - articles and quotes and stories that move me. Sometimes I save entire newspapers - I saved all the newspapers from 9-11 for years, until I donated them to a history teacher. I saved newspapers from historical accomplishments in sports. I've saved inspiring stories, and snippets about resources... blah blah blah. Every week I look in my living room table and my desk and there's more paperwork everywhere, and half of it are these clippings! So I got a notebook, and I'm pasting in these things that I've saved. I'm also putting in quotes (been collecting those for years) and writing that people have sent me ( sabethea, that means you're in there!). I've got the notebook divided into categories, and I'm going to keep on using it. I regret that I threw away some stuff just recently, thinking I would never get around to doing anything with them, but it's OK. I've also remembered a drawer I have with more snippets stuck into it, so I will raid that later. :) I found a way to remember from now on. I'm not going to lose me.
Something I did well this week. When I was having a major emotional breakdown, I took time out of my workday and called a friend and had a good cry. I remembered that I am not ashamed of my disability, and no matter what it may bring, I never will be.