Stress stinks, I need some Arid
Alright you guys. As you all might know, next year I am tackeling 3 AP classes. Today I found out who my U.S. History teacher is (or will be). And guess what? No, not Mr. Gormally. No, not even Ms. Tipps (or Tibbs...?)
Yes. That's right. I have Brewer. BREWER!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE'S THE WORST TEACHER IN COLLINS HILL! On top of that, I have Julienna Jones in my class, who is currently in my chemistry class and CONSTANTLY complains about Mrs. Ahlswede. Okay, well, Mrs. Ahlswede at least hands out test reviews, worksheets, etc.; but this woman, I've heard that she doesn't teach. AT ALL. And I don't think I can handle another year of hearing little Miss Jones complain either. She's very negitive and it really rubs off on me. >:O Whoever is reading this and still has all their U.S. History work/notes/test, I would GREATLY appreciate it if you gave them to me, so I can go ahead and learn ALL of the material over the summer. GRRR. And Rachel Florio got Mr. G! WHAT'S UP WITH THAT?! I guess what comes around goes around. B/c I thought that if I did 3 AP classes, the 10 points would boost my grade and raise my GPA. THANKS GOD FOR THAT SLAP IN THE FACE!!
And here's some more. This summer I have summer league, coaching, hopefully teaching swim lessons @ SWAT, doubles (heh-- probably not..), and summer reading. But that's not any more than any other swimmer at SWAT, so I won't complain about that. But what I really want to try this summer/next school year is Cross County (XC). I don't know why. I just really want to try something new. And I think I'd be good at it! I could at least try! And it's something else I can letter in (hahaha material objects mean so much to me..) But WHERE IN THE WORLD am I gonna fit XC into my schedule? I can't! I can't even make the double practices this summer b/c I desperately need to work in order to pay for Barbados.
OH! And that's another thing. Today I did terrible in practice. I was threatened to be moved down. And what's worse is, I don't care! I have such a full plate right now with my research paper, Spanish project, math test, chem test, eventually LA test, FINALS--- I have 4 real days and 3 half days to bring up 6 grades. Swimming shitty in 2 or 3 practices really doesn't compete with school right now. So what now? Do I not like swimming any more? No. I still like swimming I guess. And I really want to go to Barbados, mainly b/c it's BARBADOS! But then I start thinking, "Wait Kelly, do you realize that it's gonna be freaking HARD down there? (in Barbados you sickos)" And that thought scares me.
AND NOW I'm thinking that that whole Jeff GoForth thing was a joke. It's obviously not working right now. Maybe I've just been so positive in the beginning of the week that my negitive self had to LET LOOSE AND BE FREE!!!!!!! I apologize. I know that no one wants to hear someone being negitive. See ^^ about me and Julienna Jones.
But where was I, oh yes. NEXT YEAR: 3 AP classes, hopefully a job (b/c I need to pay for gas, insurance, and a car. But before that I need Driver's Ed and a LISCENSE!), swimming, and XC? Hmm... NO! I want to do XC so bad, but I just can't. Somebody help me. If I did XC and SWAT, I would be at school from 7-4:30, then go straight to practice, and not be home again until 7:30. That's if I don't teach lessons afterwards. Maybe lessons will be just a summer job. Who knows. But, if school/swimming/XC was a job, that would be a 12 hour shift. WTF. Then when would I do my homework for those THREE FRICKIN AP CLASSES THAT I, being the dumbass that I am, SIGNED UP FOR?!?! I'm screwed. Screwed to live my life the same way every day. School. Swim. HW. TV. Sleep. Why can't I spice it up with something new? Like XC. urrrghhhhhhhhhshhghsah
This is NOT a good sign. I'm already feeling so stressed out, and next year hasn't even started yet. Or maybe I feel stressed b/c I have a research paper to write and like a BIZILLION tests coming up.
F school. F swimming. F life in general.
I wanna watch a Life Time movie.
Yeah and here's another reason I need to do XC, (which the practices start during the summer. Add that to the list) Guess what you guys? I'm getting fat. I've gained like 10 pounds since last year. NOT COOL. Especially since I haven't grown. Taller that is. Looks like XC is definitly gonna happen. I need the double exercise.:-\