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Finally dropped off all the weight I gained from my birthday festivities. I had just managed to get below 150 that day before all the food; at the end of the day I had gained 5 pounds. I'm a little surprised it only took 2 days of minimal eating to drop back down that far; it sure took a helluva lot longer to get there initially =). After doing some research on BMI, I can get down between 130-135 without being anorexic; however, with my bone structure and build, that number is probably technically closer to 140. I'll probably keep on my diet until I get around 145, and just try to let it hover there.
It's starting to look pretty certain I'll be moving in with my parents; unless I hear something in the next day or so I'm going to start making arrangements on that assumption. Hopefully I'll be able to break the lease on my apartment without too much trouble/money =). And I sincerely hope this is the last time I ever have to live in College Station; I feel like this town just drains me. I finally realized that, once I realized how different I feel whenever I'm outside of here for any length of time. I don't know if it's because of how poorly I feel I've done here in college, along with all the bad memories, or merely because I've gotten stuck in a cycle of failure here, but I look at leaving here as a chance to escape and try to start again. Not that there's any guarantee that I will do better once I leave here, but I like to think so =).
But presently I'm just bored. Bored with reading, bored with aim, bored with playing guitar, bored with music, bored with anime; I need get out and do something, remind myself that I'm still alive, and that there's a whole world out there ripe for the plucking.
But not here in CS, because CS sucks =).
It's starting to look pretty certain I'll be moving in with my parents; unless I hear something in the next day or so I'm going to start making arrangements on that assumption. Hopefully I'll be able to break the lease on my apartment without too much trouble/money =). And I sincerely hope this is the last time I ever have to live in College Station; I feel like this town just drains me. I finally realized that, once I realized how different I feel whenever I'm outside of here for any length of time. I don't know if it's because of how poorly I feel I've done here in college, along with all the bad memories, or merely because I've gotten stuck in a cycle of failure here, but I look at leaving here as a chance to escape and try to start again. Not that there's any guarantee that I will do better once I leave here, but I like to think so =).
But presently I'm just bored. Bored with reading, bored with aim, bored with playing guitar, bored with music, bored with anime; I need get out and do something, remind myself that I'm still alive, and that there's a whole world out there ripe for the plucking.
But not here in CS, because CS sucks =).