A day in Hell....
I made up my mind, so I want to have evidence, Im not a complete idiot. So I decided Im not going to give a shit about HIM anymore....will fuck with Balázs and all I want to. For sure. He's just....I dont know....would give my whole world for him, not even in love with him.....but I could be....and he just keeps being an ass. He wants to fuck but not with me and all bullshit. Then why bother????I dont see the point. But still....now I have that strange feeling in my stomach and just want to cry. Here: If you love someone, set it free, if he comes back, then its Love, if doesnt, it never meant to be. Im afraid it never meant to be....Am I asking too much? A normal relationship.......not going to happen, again....an other disappointment in myself....thats the worst part...Will I ever...?Or better just end this life and start again?.....yeah my mood is kinda...you see....