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I have been meaning to write for a long time. Judging by the last entry I made, I have been meaning to write for over a year.
I like writing. Sometimes.
Actually, I guess this isn't technically writing, because I am typing, but it's writing as opposed to, like, bank robbery, so I will continue to use the term 'writing'.
So, yeah, I have been meaning to write for a long time. I even bought a journal to write in. It's cute. Too cute, I think. I don't want to write in it, because at some point in life, the journal will no longer be able to be used. I don't want that.
I guess that is why I am here. It's odd to think of how important writing was to me, and how I never do it anymore. Lots of things are odd, though, if you really think about them. Like the word 'chair'.
I think I have major trust issues. I completely trust people that I shouldn't, and I am very wary of people that I probably should trust. It doesn't blow up in my face or anything, it's just not the smartest move that I should be making. I guess I am okay with my trust issues until I find out that someone has lied to me or something. That really bugs me, because why not just be honest with me? I mean, sure, it might smart that you are a jerk not wanting to hang out with me, but at least I won't be spending the entire day waiting for you to call or something.
My other trust issue is that I am too forgiving, usually to the wrong people. Like, okay, the people I trust and shouldn't - if they lose my trust, I give it back to them too soon, which is wrong. A lot of times, it is wrong to give them the trust back at all. I suck. I am not a people person, I guess. Or I am just a bad people person. Or I am just really stupid.
I like writing. Sometimes.
Actually, I guess this isn't technically writing, because I am typing, but it's writing as opposed to, like, bank robbery, so I will continue to use the term 'writing'.
So, yeah, I have been meaning to write for a long time. I even bought a journal to write in. It's cute. Too cute, I think. I don't want to write in it, because at some point in life, the journal will no longer be able to be used. I don't want that.
I guess that is why I am here. It's odd to think of how important writing was to me, and how I never do it anymore. Lots of things are odd, though, if you really think about them. Like the word 'chair'.
I think I have major trust issues. I completely trust people that I shouldn't, and I am very wary of people that I probably should trust. It doesn't blow up in my face or anything, it's just not the smartest move that I should be making. I guess I am okay with my trust issues until I find out that someone has lied to me or something. That really bugs me, because why not just be honest with me? I mean, sure, it might smart that you are a jerk not wanting to hang out with me, but at least I won't be spending the entire day waiting for you to call or something.
My other trust issue is that I am too forgiving, usually to the wrong people. Like, okay, the people I trust and shouldn't - if they lose my trust, I give it back to them too soon, which is wrong. A lot of times, it is wrong to give them the trust back at all. I suck. I am not a people person, I guess. Or I am just a bad people person. Or I am just really stupid.