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I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm not depressed or anything.. but things could definetly be a lot better and I feel I could have prevented/fixed a lot of things if I wasn't so.. dumb I guess.
and it doesn't help that my mom's constantly bitching at me. it's always "you could have done this" "why don't you just do this" "why didn't you do this?" "welll that's what you get!" So I feel like I can't talk to her about anything anymore.
I wish I wasn't such an uncomfortable person. It just seems I'm never comfortable anymore, and I dont mean physically, I mean mentally.
..and I would go on about something else but I'm afraid that will be translated into something it isn't.
I don't know dammit. I'm sorry. I guess I just haven't felt geniunely happy in way too long of a time. I try to act happy and not bum anyone out because I know how lame that is but it's really just built up and I don't know what to do.
blah blah sob whine i'm sorry
and it doesn't help that my mom's constantly bitching at me. it's always "you could have done this" "why don't you just do this" "why didn't you do this?" "welll that's what you get!" So I feel like I can't talk to her about anything anymore.
I wish I wasn't such an uncomfortable person. It just seems I'm never comfortable anymore, and I dont mean physically, I mean mentally.
..and I would go on about something else but I'm afraid that will be translated into something it isn't.
I don't know dammit. I'm sorry. I guess I just haven't felt geniunely happy in way too long of a time. I try to act happy and not bum anyone out because I know how lame that is but it's really just built up and I don't know what to do.
blah blah sob whine i'm sorry