little worried.
so i had my meeting with my academic advisor today about my classes that I need to take to get into the nursing program... and i know that i already fucked up my four year guarantee... so now i'm on a five year plan for winona. which has it's benefits and has its huge drawbacks.
Couple benefits that it has is that this way, i'll have an extra year to either re-take classes that I don't do well in or to take more university studies courses to raise my gpa... and because i have more time, then I don't have to take as many credits during the semesters anymore either. my advisor even told me that I should only take like 13 - 14 credits a semester so that I can focus on just those couple classes that i have and make sure i get good grades in those, ya know?
but the drawbacks is that just exactly what it is --- is that it's an extra fucken year. and that's gay. i want so badly to be done with school and married and starting my own family by the time i'm like 22 or 23... but because i fucked up in chemistry ... that one class is putting everything back another year.
and i wasn't planning on staying here in winona for my junior and senior year... i was planning on going home to be closer to my family and to aaron and all my friends and just doing the nursing program at AR... that's what aaron's sister did and she's makin hella good money and has the exact job that i want right now actually... but the more i think about doing that, the more i realize that the waiting lists for community college nursing programs are like 4 years long! but somehow! she managed to finish in four years and i dunno how the fuck she did it!!!! im so sick of winona, i really don't think i could last another four years here... even if i went to rochester for the nursing program... ick. a) it's too far away from home... b) there's more to do there than here, but it's still boring there... and just in general... i'm so sick of winona.
but the LAST thing i wanna do (after three years of college by the way) is spend the next four years waiting to get into AR's nursing program and waiting tables at billy's and postponing my family and career just because I fucked up in Chemistry.
Ugh... this is gay. I just want to fast forward my whole life like five years and be done with school with a job and a family and a house or whatever...
and to top it all off ... i'm still all fucked up with school and aaron and all that shit right now too ... i'm taking my finals early because my finals week is the very week after Aaron leaves and because i'm taking them early... i'm like bombarded with tests. i only have 16 days of class left and in those 16 days i have 7 tests... two tests next monday... then a test that wednesday... then i got a week after that that i'll probably have to write and give a speech... then that next week i have my finals i gotta take.
and... as always... the icing on the cake is that i have to say goodbye to the love of my life during all of this, and some how try to live for an entire fucken year with out him... which is damn fucken near impossible for me.
nice, huh?
I'm so fucken sick of college. I just want it to be done and over with. My mom has always told me that I need the "college experience, living life out on my own, not attached to anyone or anything" at least one time in my life... and i did that... for the first part of this year i was single living out here doing anything i wanted. and i hated it. it was gay. don't get me wrong... i love hangin out with my friends and partyin it up every once in a while... but i over did it first semester and now i think it's just lame. people who go out thursday, friday AND saturday nights... EVERY weekend are just fucken lame. it's a waste of money and brain cells and i have way better things to do with my time. but the problem is ... is that THAT'S what college is all about for most people here... i got my group of girls that are awesome and i love to death... but otherwise... everyone else here is just dumb.
so like i said... i'm ready to be done. i feel like i'm just gonna be stuck in this same spot for the next five years and it's retarted.
college is gay.
Couple benefits that it has is that this way, i'll have an extra year to either re-take classes that I don't do well in or to take more university studies courses to raise my gpa... and because i have more time, then I don't have to take as many credits during the semesters anymore either. my advisor even told me that I should only take like 13 - 14 credits a semester so that I can focus on just those couple classes that i have and make sure i get good grades in those, ya know?
but the drawbacks is that just exactly what it is --- is that it's an extra fucken year. and that's gay. i want so badly to be done with school and married and starting my own family by the time i'm like 22 or 23... but because i fucked up in chemistry ... that one class is putting everything back another year.
and i wasn't planning on staying here in winona for my junior and senior year... i was planning on going home to be closer to my family and to aaron and all my friends and just doing the nursing program at AR... that's what aaron's sister did and she's makin hella good money and has the exact job that i want right now actually... but the more i think about doing that, the more i realize that the waiting lists for community college nursing programs are like 4 years long! but somehow! she managed to finish in four years and i dunno how the fuck she did it!!!! im so sick of winona, i really don't think i could last another four years here... even if i went to rochester for the nursing program... ick. a) it's too far away from home... b) there's more to do there than here, but it's still boring there... and just in general... i'm so sick of winona.
but the LAST thing i wanna do (after three years of college by the way) is spend the next four years waiting to get into AR's nursing program and waiting tables at billy's and postponing my family and career just because I fucked up in Chemistry.
Ugh... this is gay. I just want to fast forward my whole life like five years and be done with school with a job and a family and a house or whatever...
and to top it all off ... i'm still all fucked up with school and aaron and all that shit right now too ... i'm taking my finals early because my finals week is the very week after Aaron leaves and because i'm taking them early... i'm like bombarded with tests. i only have 16 days of class left and in those 16 days i have 7 tests... two tests next monday... then a test that wednesday... then i got a week after that that i'll probably have to write and give a speech... then that next week i have my finals i gotta take.
and... as always... the icing on the cake is that i have to say goodbye to the love of my life during all of this, and some how try to live for an entire fucken year with out him... which is damn fucken near impossible for me.
nice, huh?
I'm so fucken sick of college. I just want it to be done and over with. My mom has always told me that I need the "college experience, living life out on my own, not attached to anyone or anything" at least one time in my life... and i did that... for the first part of this year i was single living out here doing anything i wanted. and i hated it. it was gay. don't get me wrong... i love hangin out with my friends and partyin it up every once in a while... but i over did it first semester and now i think it's just lame. people who go out thursday, friday AND saturday nights... EVERY weekend are just fucken lame. it's a waste of money and brain cells and i have way better things to do with my time. but the problem is ... is that THAT'S what college is all about for most people here... i got my group of girls that are awesome and i love to death... but otherwise... everyone else here is just dumb.
so like i said... i'm ready to be done. i feel like i'm just gonna be stuck in this same spot for the next five years and it's retarted.
college is gay.