woah.
good thing i still update this... right.. um i dont really know what to say. life is okay i guess. im not exactly happy with it, but it works. my family matters most to me. other than that i really dont have anything. most of my friends are lame, and are people i really dont want to be around at all. none of them understand me. even when they think they do, they really dont. people change, i change. thats just the way things are. i finally have a job, so that keeps me busy. i really dont know what is going to happen at this point. im actually really lost. hard to explain and not like any of you are still reading this or even care/understand. somethings missing in my life, and im still waiting to find out what it is. and when i find it, ill know. ive had it before. its an emotion, a feeling. a comfort. again, no one understands. so im going to stop, but i think typing this out made me feel a little better for some reason, even though im pretty much talking to myself here. okay thanks um bye.