Poem: insomnia

[mc_rowe_manz]

title: insomnia
category: gen?  slash? take it as you will.
bandom: MCR
warnings: swearing (should I warn about that?)
author's note: a poem.  I don't usually write them but this came out as a poem. *shrugs*

summary: a restless night.


insomnia

run

run

runrunrunrunrun

always running

hamster-thoughts

why

why

why
can't  i

shut

my

brain

off

for one

night

hour

minute even

but no

running

rolling rolling rolling

rawhide

i hate

hatehatehate

my

brain

sometimes

the rolling

rambling

stumbling

tumble of

thoughts

images

every

fucking

thing

flittering wings through my

head with-

out filters

or breaks

or even pauses

for breath just

speeding  along

a long night

of no

sleep

pacing (too loud)

images (no light)

words (can't think)

company (they sleep)

i need

needneedneed

some     thing

body

one

any       thing

body

one

no

not any

just

one

Him

but

butbutbut

no

just

rockingrockingrocking

hands

in hair

teeth

clenched

grinding frustrated

syllables into

silence

too

scattered

too

busy

too

cyclical

tootootootoo

fuck

fuckfuckfuck

my stupid

fucking

brain

whywhywhywhywhy can't i

stop

arms

what

who

blinkblinkblink

Him

His

arms

soothe

stroking

calming

they slow down my

running thoughts

rein them in,

direct the frantic circling

into corralled containment.

Fingers relax tense muscles then

massage my scalp, my brain, my thoughts

into order, into stillness,

into heavy lidded blinking,

and finally

sleep.

Note: formatting this was really really really annoying.  Why can't LJ be more friendly?