Warm.
Just now, walking back from Ben and Jen's, I did my usual walk and prayer with God that I do every time I walk back to my room. Usually I'd start with asking for forgiveness and then asking if I was going where my life was going was according to His will and on as such.
Today, I got interrupted with this warming feeling in my chest that made me smile. I got the feeling that I was doing everything okay, and that I should keep moving forward, even with the things on my mind and heart. I'm doing fine.
"Stop worrying so much my Son. You'll be okay. Because I said so. Peace."
And I walked the rest of the way back to my room in a happy silence, music on my bluetooth headphones, barely listening or thinking. Just reveling in the fact that I still have favor in God, that He hasn't turned on me, that whatever I'm doing is the right thing.
I just want to know why a familiar person feels so new. And what it means. But I know that I'm not meant to know that. At least, not right now, anyway. It's just a warm feeling I get when we talk. Something comfortable, something amazing. But I'm trying not to let my heart go to anyone else but God. I'm so easily captivated by these matters. And for some reason, I'm seemingly captivated by both at the same time. I'll continue to pray on it and see where things leads.
He is risen.
Today, I got interrupted with this warming feeling in my chest that made me smile. I got the feeling that I was doing everything okay, and that I should keep moving forward, even with the things on my mind and heart. I'm doing fine.
"Stop worrying so much my Son. You'll be okay. Because I said so. Peace."
And I walked the rest of the way back to my room in a happy silence, music on my bluetooth headphones, barely listening or thinking. Just reveling in the fact that I still have favor in God, that He hasn't turned on me, that whatever I'm doing is the right thing.
I just want to know why a familiar person feels so new. And what it means. But I know that I'm not meant to know that. At least, not right now, anyway. It's just a warm feeling I get when we talk. Something comfortable, something amazing. But I'm trying not to let my heart go to anyone else but God. I'm so easily captivated by these matters. And for some reason, I'm seemingly captivated by both at the same time. I'll continue to pray on it and see where things leads.
He is risen.