Day 22 and All Is Silent Now
We hit a rough patch and I'm still kinda shaken up by it.
But it's nothing.
I like to think that I'm strong sometimes.
That I really want all of this to work out.
And nothing is going to tell me otherwise.
I haven't seen her in 22 days, and I've got 19 left before I'm with her again, and I have a list of things to do.
I'm driving myself crazy
It's all a little hazy
But maybe just once maybe
I'll score me a little lady
And that'll be that.
It's all said and done
And I've just begun
And I hate that I just wrote that, but I'm gonna leave it. Unfinished.
I still have a problem with my hopes.
I'm still not trying to hope so high that if I fall the fall won't kill me.
I feel like I'm holding my breath and waiting for the signal that it's clear to breathe again.
I can't explain all the things going through my head right now.
It's so cluttered.
Oh, and I guess on a more positive note;
Life is jealous of me now. Maybe that's why I feel this way.
EDIT:
I guess I see where I'm going wrong, and I feel it.
No reason to get sad because I don't talk to her everyday,
as much as I want to.
No reason to get upset that I can't talk to her every night when I'm hoping that she's waiting to talk to me, as if I do anything important enough to tell her everyday anyway.
Note to self: Wait for the important moments, your relationship can handle that. Hell, it can handle a lot more than you think, just step back and let it grow. Let this natural phenomenon do it's dirt, yo. Don't get cramped up, you've already said that she's not like anyone else you've dated, and this is one of those moments. Chillax, and enjoy the benefits of having that girl you've been dying to have for the past forever in love with you. Jeez.
But it's nothing.
I like to think that I'm strong sometimes.
That I really want all of this to work out.
And nothing is going to tell me otherwise.
I haven't seen her in 22 days, and I've got 19 left before I'm with her again, and I have a list of things to do.
I'm driving myself crazy
It's all a little hazy
But maybe just once maybe
I'll score me a little lady
And that'll be that.
It's all said and done
And I've just begun
And I hate that I just wrote that, but I'm gonna leave it. Unfinished.
I still have a problem with my hopes.
I'm still not trying to hope so high that if I fall the fall won't kill me.
I feel like I'm holding my breath and waiting for the signal that it's clear to breathe again.
I can't explain all the things going through my head right now.
It's so cluttered.
Oh, and I guess on a more positive note;
Life is jealous of me now. Maybe that's why I feel this way.
EDIT:
I guess I see where I'm going wrong, and I feel it.
No reason to get sad because I don't talk to her everyday,
as much as I want to.
No reason to get upset that I can't talk to her every night when I'm hoping that she's waiting to talk to me, as if I do anything important enough to tell her everyday anyway.
Note to self: Wait for the important moments, your relationship can handle that. Hell, it can handle a lot more than you think, just step back and let it grow. Let this natural phenomenon do it's dirt, yo. Don't get cramped up, you've already said that she's not like anyone else you've dated, and this is one of those moments. Chillax, and enjoy the benefits of having that girl you've been dying to have for the past forever in love with you. Jeez.