oh you know
i finally admitted to myself and a couple of others a lot of the things going on in my head. it's made it a bit easier to cope. things are really difficult right now, but sometimes thats just how life is. not everything is supposed to be easy, and sometimes the things that are right are the hardest. but thats how it goes. i'm just trying to pick up the pieces, and trying to hold whats left of my life together. i have incredible amounts of hope, and i only have going to church to thank for that. i feel like things will work out for me, i deserve it.