as per usual
honestly i dont know why i even try. and fuck being optomistic, it doesnt make anything any better.
first off, for some reason i always seem to think that coming home and seeing my parents and family again is going to be better than it really is. i'm starting to feel a lot more depressed agian, and this time i am aware of it so i can tell that its happening i just can't do anything to fight it.
and there is more especially about cuse people and school itself, but i feel like i can never say anything about it because everybody is all overly involved in everyone elses lives. it just sucks....all of it. i cant believe that i thought some of the choices i made, especially freshman year, were a good idea. i'm definitely feeling the consequences now. i'm glad i only have a year left to deal with all the drama and bullshit. i'm so over it. i just want out.
first off, for some reason i always seem to think that coming home and seeing my parents and family again is going to be better than it really is. i'm starting to feel a lot more depressed agian, and this time i am aware of it so i can tell that its happening i just can't do anything to fight it.
and there is more especially about cuse people and school itself, but i feel like i can never say anything about it because everybody is all overly involved in everyone elses lives. it just sucks....all of it. i cant believe that i thought some of the choices i made, especially freshman year, were a good idea. i'm definitely feeling the consequences now. i'm glad i only have a year left to deal with all the drama and bullshit. i'm so over it. i just want out.