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I can't stop thinking about her.... is it good or bad? I know I want to go out with her, and I'd like to really get to know her, but I'm afraid of rejection, and i have no clue / very few clues as to how she feels about me. I knkow she enjoys my company, at least a bit. we laugh and have a good time every monday when we go to the movies. but she's made it a point to tell me we'ren't dating, even though she's said I've got a standing date every monday. She's also said that she doesn't want a boyfriend until she matures. esp. since she cheated on the last two. she also said SHE DOESN"T WANT TO HURT ME. at least she cares. but it sounds promising to me. I'll wait a while before I do anything more, but... How am I supposed to know how she feels about me? Should I just wait and expect her to tell me she's ready for a boy friend? well, I'm not going to force the issue at all until next semester, and then very little. but I do think I'll buy her a CHRISTmas present. HSe's said she wants another GV sweatshirt. and I do get a discount. And she's said she might use me to get it cheaper (I offered), so I could always buy it and not let her pay me back, and tell her to call it a CHRISTmas present. But I think I'll more likely just buy it and give it to her just before she goes home for CHRISTmas. She's amazing, and (book)smart, and beautiful, and fun, and, just, wow. I think I might be in love. huh, I've felt like this in a while. but last time I did I got my heart broken... and then i broke Lily's. I shouldn't have broken up with her. I think I might have a regret...that's a first. I still feel bad for what I did to her. What's done is done. I think she's happy with her newest b/f and I hope she really is.
Anyone who reads this, please feel free to commment. It'd be much appricated.
Merry CHRISTmas
P.S. I want to buy an FM station. at lest 3 hours a day. 8-9, 12-1, 4:30-6. Have a rosary saying at the begining. Like some nuns singing/chanting. a different type and one everytime. Then random doctrine, and Catholic news, and Catholic music. Contempary and otherwise. noon could be the daily Mass. and then in the evening more music, and news, and then end with rosary. call it the catholic Catholic radio.
Anyone who reads this, please feel free to commment. It'd be much appricated.
Merry CHRISTmas
P.S. I want to buy an FM station. at lest 3 hours a day. 8-9, 12-1, 4:30-6. Have a rosary saying at the begining. Like some nuns singing/chanting. a different type and one everytime. Then random doctrine, and Catholic news, and Catholic music. Contempary and otherwise. noon could be the daily Mass. and then in the evening more music, and news, and then end with rosary. call it the catholic Catholic radio.