And I ask my self, "Who do I wanna be? Do I wanna throw away the key and invent a whole new me?".
I hate looking at the Grand Island news website and seeing people I grew up with who are far better off than I am. I feel like I haven't accomplished any of my dreams/goals. I mean sure I have a degree now but it took me what 6 years? And it isn't even in something that I'm passionate about. But honestly, what am I passionate about? It seems like every time I think I want to do or be something I eventually change my mind and end up at square one. I've felt this way for a really long time. Ever since I started college and I realized I could be whatever I wanted. Answering the question "what do I want?" has always been my biggest downfall.
This is all making me rethink my whole decision about Syracuse. Not because I don't want to go away or I think I can't do it, but because I'm not passionate about it. I don't want it enough to deserve it. Lately I've been researching the idea of teaching. I never really thought about it before but I feel like it's something I would be good at. It just seems like I've already wasted so much time. idk. Just some stuff I've been thinking about...maybe I think about it too much. I just need to feel like I'm moving forward and right now I don't =\
This is all making me rethink my whole decision about Syracuse. Not because I don't want to go away or I think I can't do it, but because I'm not passionate about it. I don't want it enough to deserve it. Lately I've been researching the idea of teaching. I never really thought about it before but I feel like it's something I would be good at. It just seems like I've already wasted so much time. idk. Just some stuff I've been thinking about...maybe I think about it too much. I just need to feel like I'm moving forward and right now I don't =\