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Living isn't so fun right now. These past few days things that I can usually look past and that I normally don't let hurt me, have been killing me.
Today in Chem, Chris was giving Matt a bunch of shit. He was basically just trying to humiliate and patronize him. He's so homophobic it's disgusting. Matt's given up on sticking up for himself..It only ever fuels them to keep going..so he just tries to ignore them. After about 10 minutes of Matt giving me looks to stay out of it and me biting my tongue..I just lost it. I chucked the beaker at his head. And it hit. It hit hard.
It was stupid. It was immature. It was unnecessary. It was violent. It felt good.
Yeah so I'm suspended for three days. And I have a week of detention. Matt's upset with me. Matty and Billy are dissapointed in me. I'm afraid my dad will kill me. Other than that it's fine.
I have to go to practice now. I'm not really looking forward to it 'cause Matt's really not happy with me now..it's gonna be uncomfortable, but he should get over it soon. I hope anyway.
I don't wanna go..but I have to 'cause we have another gig at the club this weekend. I'm excited. I'll write later..
Today in Chem, Chris was giving Matt a bunch of shit. He was basically just trying to humiliate and patronize him. He's so homophobic it's disgusting. Matt's given up on sticking up for himself..It only ever fuels them to keep going..so he just tries to ignore them. After about 10 minutes of Matt giving me looks to stay out of it and me biting my tongue..I just lost it. I chucked the beaker at his head. And it hit. It hit hard.
It was stupid. It was immature. It was unnecessary. It was violent. It felt good.
Yeah so I'm suspended for three days. And I have a week of detention. Matt's upset with me. Matty and Billy are dissapointed in me. I'm afraid my dad will kill me. Other than that it's fine.
I have to go to practice now. I'm not really looking forward to it 'cause Matt's really not happy with me now..it's gonna be uncomfortable, but he should get over it soon. I hope anyway.
I don't wanna go..but I have to 'cause we have another gig at the club this weekend. I'm excited. I'll write later..