Tell me what's going on
Ok, so for those of you who know who have been reading my recently posted LJ's, know that I'm trying to leave the group, and you know the reasons too. One is that it's weird for me being in a group, but the major one, is that I have developed feelings for Lindsay. Unfortunately, I'm having issues getting away, especially when it comes to Lindsay, who is the person I need to get the most distance from. However, whenever I get around her, it makes me question my decision. Not only that, when she hugs me, and does her little cuddle thing it makes it even harder, I know there isn't any emotional attachment behind the hugs, but it's weird. When she found out that Matt Knee liked her, she stopped hugging him like this, and she doesn't do it with Brad or Travis, just me, and it's not like I don't like it, because I do, and that's the problem. I need to get over her, and even though there isn't anything emotional in the hugs, it still makes it harder, and actually, just seeing her makes it harder. Yes, that sucks, a lot.
I'm starting to doubt my knowledge of Lindsay's feelings, at least a little. I've been told several different things, and things have been hinted. Matt Knee says that she does like me, even though he doesn't have any proof, and I'm not sure if he's joking or not anymore. Even Audrey has me a little confused, in a response to one of my LJ's, she confirmed that I'm only the safe guy, and nothing more, but a while ago when we were talking in the auditorium, I said I'd feel bad if I dated Lindsay, and she just said I'd get over it. I'm probably reading way too much into that one, but it still confused me. Then there's Lindsay herself, she has said many times that there's nothing between us, and that we can't date, and that she doesn't date younger guys. However, there was Brad's question to Lindsay, he asked if Lindsay hugged me and cuddled with me because she was attracted to me, or if it was just because it annoyed me, of course I jumped in and said it was the second one, at which point he said he wanted Lindsay to answer. She hesitated, and I told her that instead of answering, she could always “pull a me,” and not answer. The reason I did that was because either answer would've been bad for me, if she did it only to annoy me, it'd mean I was right, and she didn't have any feelings for me at all. If she had said the first one, it would mean that she did have feelings for me, but she didn't want them to turn into anything, so it was a lose/lose situation, so I didn’t want to know the answer.
All in all, I'm just confused, will someone please tell me what to believe, will someone please confirm my thought that Lindsay doesn't have feelings for me, and she will never have feelings for me. Will someone please tell me what to believe.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=bt1sVOYfO3Q
I'm starting to doubt my knowledge of Lindsay's feelings, at least a little. I've been told several different things, and things have been hinted. Matt Knee says that she does like me, even though he doesn't have any proof, and I'm not sure if he's joking or not anymore. Even Audrey has me a little confused, in a response to one of my LJ's, she confirmed that I'm only the safe guy, and nothing more, but a while ago when we were talking in the auditorium, I said I'd feel bad if I dated Lindsay, and she just said I'd get over it. I'm probably reading way too much into that one, but it still confused me. Then there's Lindsay herself, she has said many times that there's nothing between us, and that we can't date, and that she doesn't date younger guys. However, there was Brad's question to Lindsay, he asked if Lindsay hugged me and cuddled with me because she was attracted to me, or if it was just because it annoyed me, of course I jumped in and said it was the second one, at which point he said he wanted Lindsay to answer. She hesitated, and I told her that instead of answering, she could always “pull a me,” and not answer. The reason I did that was because either answer would've been bad for me, if she did it only to annoy me, it'd mean I was right, and she didn't have any feelings for me at all. If she had said the first one, it would mean that she did have feelings for me, but she didn't want them to turn into anything, so it was a lose/lose situation, so I didn’t want to know the answer.
All in all, I'm just confused, will someone please tell me what to believe, will someone please confirm my thought that Lindsay doesn't have feelings for me, and she will never have feelings for me. Will someone please tell me what to believe.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=bt1sVOYfO3Q