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I'm listening to the summer song '04 and it kinda takes me back a bit.
I remember driving around the night of graduation with Lauren, we tried to see how many times we could listen to this song. I remember our parties, the fires--the couches, the fireworks, Joey. I remember how excited I was about seeing him and how amazing I thought he was. College--I was so ready to get away from Wallkill, and go to school.
Then reality I guess..
Lauren and I, obviously connected at the hip. Probably the worst idea ever to go to school away from her. We tried it, it didn't work, we're fixing it now.
I loved my friends but we all know the IC story.
And Joe, oh Joe. I really don't understand how someone could change so much. Maybe it was just me that changed. I didn't like having to always appease someone. For goodness sake you're in the army, grow up. I really don't know when all of that went downhill but it did, and I held on for too long.
Last summer was pretty awesome. Lauren helped me become more outgoing--ears pierced, ferris wheel what?-- The fact the Joe and I were completely over was definitely apparent. I worked at the Bon Ton, made money, hung out with my friend. Although I think that summer '04 was better, just bc I was naive and everything was so exciting. Hard to believe I've become even more cynical.
Now look where I am.
I think that I'm fairly happy where I am now. My life is far less exciting that I want it to be, but I'm working on it. I've been feeling more apathetic when it comes to school, but I think that means I'm just starting to become normal, and less of an over-achiever. I hope things become more interesting next semester when Lauren and I go to WCSU. I also hope that I can find a competent, MUSICAL and TALL boy. haha. I mean I'm fairly attractive, so we'll see.
I still get annoyed thinking about Joe and how stressful he was. (I mean even he has a gf now.) And I guess some people would say that if you still have negative feelings that means you're not over them, but eff them, he was an asshole, there's no way to put a positive spin on that.
I don't know, I know that I want things to go a certain way, and they usually don't. So I'm attempting little by little to just go with it, and not over-think everything.
Now after this deep reflection I should really go study for my Psych quiz that's on 3 chapters, one of which I have yet to read.
fin
I remember driving around the night of graduation with Lauren, we tried to see how many times we could listen to this song. I remember our parties, the fires--the couches, the fireworks, Joey. I remember how excited I was about seeing him and how amazing I thought he was. College--I was so ready to get away from Wallkill, and go to school.
Then reality I guess..
Lauren and I, obviously connected at the hip. Probably the worst idea ever to go to school away from her. We tried it, it didn't work, we're fixing it now.
I loved my friends but we all know the IC story.
And Joe, oh Joe. I really don't understand how someone could change so much. Maybe it was just me that changed. I didn't like having to always appease someone. For goodness sake you're in the army, grow up. I really don't know when all of that went downhill but it did, and I held on for too long.
Last summer was pretty awesome. Lauren helped me become more outgoing--ears pierced, ferris wheel what?-- The fact the Joe and I were completely over was definitely apparent. I worked at the Bon Ton, made money, hung out with my friend. Although I think that summer '04 was better, just bc I was naive and everything was so exciting. Hard to believe I've become even more cynical.
Now look where I am.
I think that I'm fairly happy where I am now. My life is far less exciting that I want it to be, but I'm working on it. I've been feeling more apathetic when it comes to school, but I think that means I'm just starting to become normal, and less of an over-achiever. I hope things become more interesting next semester when Lauren and I go to WCSU. I also hope that I can find a competent, MUSICAL and TALL boy. haha. I mean I'm fairly attractive, so we'll see.
I still get annoyed thinking about Joe and how stressful he was. (I mean even he has a gf now.) And I guess some people would say that if you still have negative feelings that means you're not over them, but eff them, he was an asshole, there's no way to put a positive spin on that.
I don't know, I know that I want things to go a certain way, and they usually don't. So I'm attempting little by little to just go with it, and not over-think everything.
Now after this deep reflection I should really go study for my Psych quiz that's on 3 chapters, one of which I have yet to read.
fin