I haven't written in a while
But I can say that there is a lot going on and I am the happiest I have ever been in a long time
Jon is long gone and dead (God rest his soul)
Mars always seems to amaze me everyday and I thank god he put us together. I can't live without him and the fact that he can put up with my bipolarities is awesome. He's my one and only!
Audrie is just the best girl I have ever met. She isn't fake and she cares about me a lot. I couldn't be more grateful to have her in my life. I don't feel like I have to pretend around her, which is so liberating.
Paula is wonderful, she's always making me laugh at work even when I don't feel like it. She's always there for me when I need someone. (And I thought everyone at Walgreens was evil!)
And Travis, fuck I just love my big black brother! He's my guardian/brother/boo etc etc <3
My friends do nothing but make me smile lately and I am so grateful I don't find myself miserable everyday.
I guess the only things I am really unhappy about are..
1. Living in my parent's house
and 2. I learned today at the doctor's office.
Ever since my back injury, I have had a hell of a lot of nerve damage due to the herniated discs in my neck and back. About 5 months ago I had testing done to determine which nerves were good/okay/damaged/and dead. ½ of the nerves in my legs were good. Which is why I walk so fucking slow and some days my legs feel so weak, It's hard to walk. Now, I haven't really felt the nerve pain in a while, but I did have a few episodes in which my legs would just.. have a surge go through them.. like a jolt and it forced me to kick and shake them.. it looked like I was having a hissy fit or a seizure. It was very weird.. and I didn't like it. I mean it had only happened every other week or so but lately it's been almost every day. When I told this to Dr. Bush today he looked very concerned and told me it was one of two things..
RLS - Restless leg syndrome, which can be treated
or...
My nerves are fucking shot/being damaged from my shifting discs/ and/or dying. WHICH WOULD SUCK.
Cause if that were to be happening, they might have to move up my spinal fusion surgery, which is just as scary as it sounds.
But yea.. other than that crazy shit, I am pretty happy and I am glad to have gotten rid of all the fake people that were in my life.
I love you guys <3
Jon is long gone and dead (God rest his soul)
Mars always seems to amaze me everyday and I thank god he put us together. I can't live without him and the fact that he can put up with my bipolarities is awesome. He's my one and only!
Audrie is just the best girl I have ever met. She isn't fake and she cares about me a lot. I couldn't be more grateful to have her in my life. I don't feel like I have to pretend around her, which is so liberating.
Paula is wonderful, she's always making me laugh at work even when I don't feel like it. She's always there for me when I need someone. (And I thought everyone at Walgreens was evil!)
And Travis, fuck I just love my big black brother! He's my guardian/brother/boo etc etc <3
My friends do nothing but make me smile lately and I am so grateful I don't find myself miserable everyday.
I guess the only things I am really unhappy about are..
1. Living in my parent's house
and 2. I learned today at the doctor's office.
Ever since my back injury, I have had a hell of a lot of nerve damage due to the herniated discs in my neck and back. About 5 months ago I had testing done to determine which nerves were good/okay/damaged/and dead. ½ of the nerves in my legs were good. Which is why I walk so fucking slow and some days my legs feel so weak, It's hard to walk. Now, I haven't really felt the nerve pain in a while, but I did have a few episodes in which my legs would just.. have a surge go through them.. like a jolt and it forced me to kick and shake them.. it looked like I was having a hissy fit or a seizure. It was very weird.. and I didn't like it. I mean it had only happened every other week or so but lately it's been almost every day. When I told this to Dr. Bush today he looked very concerned and told me it was one of two things..
RLS - Restless leg syndrome, which can be treated
or...
My nerves are fucking shot/being damaged from my shifting discs/ and/or dying. WHICH WOULD SUCK.
Cause if that were to be happening, they might have to move up my spinal fusion surgery, which is just as scary as it sounds.
But yea.. other than that crazy shit, I am pretty happy and I am glad to have gotten rid of all the fake people that were in my life.
I love you guys <3