We've made a few mistakes, it's not for me to say
My dad has been gone for over a week and I think I am extremely depressed about it.
I'm sure that if he was home today, I wouldn't be such a miserable wreck, that I currently am. He would've made an effort to make me and my sister feel special..
I have become extremely unstable.. I am not taking Zoloft anymore, but I doubt that is the entire reason im so bipolar. The amount of anxiety and depression I deal with daily are becoming almost too much to take. Sure, with the Zoloft & Klonopin, I could mask it.. but I ran out, and I don't plan on pursuing refills.
But that doesn't matter. I can't control myself half the time. When I am not working, or going to school, I am sleeping or trying to sleep. Sleep is the closest thing I have to death, which is why I act on it so much..
My aunt lost her baby at 2 months of pregnancy or so, and that's also contributing to my sadness. I am usually the person that tries to look for something positive in every negative situation, but in this one... I just can't fucking find one! Why does something like that have to happen to people who only deserve the utmost best!? I would not wish this upon anyone! Just the fucking emotional trauma alone is unbearable. It wasn't even my baby, and just look how it affects the people closest to you, it's scary!
I'm sure that if he was home today, I wouldn't be such a miserable wreck, that I currently am. He would've made an effort to make me and my sister feel special..
I have become extremely unstable.. I am not taking Zoloft anymore, but I doubt that is the entire reason im so bipolar. The amount of anxiety and depression I deal with daily are becoming almost too much to take. Sure, with the Zoloft & Klonopin, I could mask it.. but I ran out, and I don't plan on pursuing refills.
But that doesn't matter. I can't control myself half the time. When I am not working, or going to school, I am sleeping or trying to sleep. Sleep is the closest thing I have to death, which is why I act on it so much..
My aunt lost her baby at 2 months of pregnancy or so, and that's also contributing to my sadness. I am usually the person that tries to look for something positive in every negative situation, but in this one... I just can't fucking find one! Why does something like that have to happen to people who only deserve the utmost best!? I would not wish this upon anyone! Just the fucking emotional trauma alone is unbearable. It wasn't even my baby, and just look how it affects the people closest to you, it's scary!