Im only treading water

[mbem]

I have a huge monsoon of emotions drowning my insides.
There are some days that I just really can't stand the mess I have surrounded myself in.

There is more to this I know.

I'm a fool to watch you walk away.
Are you bothered by the choice you made?

I don't even know what to write, because I just can't come to my own decisions, especially on how I feel.
I don't know why I wake up every morning.
I don't know why I struggle through with each day to make it to the next.