let me be miserable for a minute
argh. :(
really low self-esteem right now. it's just the fact that two people i still really care about don't care about me near as much as they used to. I don't know what changed, I suppose I've become a less interesting person? Someone less fun to hang out with? When did this change occur because I haven't observed it. I really want to run away from my past and my attachments right now. It's not easy for me to fall out of "love" and I suppose a bit of the affection sticks with me forever because I know I can't ever completely stop thinking about them, all of them.
no wonder i'm so fucking afraid of change, it just feels like nothing ever changes for the better. gah i miss them so much. I wish things could go back to the way they used to be so badly. really...
seriously...
really low self-esteem right now. it's just the fact that two people i still really care about don't care about me near as much as they used to. I don't know what changed, I suppose I've become a less interesting person? Someone less fun to hang out with? When did this change occur because I haven't observed it. I really want to run away from my past and my attachments right now. It's not easy for me to fall out of "love" and I suppose a bit of the affection sticks with me forever because I know I can't ever completely stop thinking about them, all of them.
no wonder i'm so fucking afraid of change, it just feels like nothing ever changes for the better. gah i miss them so much. I wish things could go back to the way they used to be so badly. really...
seriously...