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I leave for college orientation in like 10 minutes
Yeah I'm a little excited, but I'm a wreck too, I don't know why I let stuff get to me, I'm trying to hard to be happy, I swear I am, but it just isn't working, I don't know, I was in a weird mood last night when I was out.
I felt ignored, even if I wasn't, it was just a weird feeling that overtook me, It felt like I couldn't smile, because every time I did, I felt like I knew it and had to stop.
I don't know if that makes sense to anyone who reads it, but it's the best way I can describe it, I need to let stop getting stuff to get to me, it's not who I should be.
I've been awake since 5 Am just sitting here listening to brand new and watching the news, the world is a depressing place in itself I think.
I don't know, I felt this morning warranted an LJ entry, I wish I had happier memories of my college orientation but whatever, it happens, it always happens.
Yeah I'm a little excited, but I'm a wreck too, I don't know why I let stuff get to me, I'm trying to hard to be happy, I swear I am, but it just isn't working, I don't know, I was in a weird mood last night when I was out.
I felt ignored, even if I wasn't, it was just a weird feeling that overtook me, It felt like I couldn't smile, because every time I did, I felt like I knew it and had to stop.
I don't know if that makes sense to anyone who reads it, but it's the best way I can describe it, I need to let stop getting stuff to get to me, it's not who I should be.
I've been awake since 5 Am just sitting here listening to brand new and watching the news, the world is a depressing place in itself I think.
I don't know, I felt this morning warranted an LJ entry, I wish I had happier memories of my college orientation but whatever, it happens, it always happens.