Feb 15, 2010 23:37
I've realized something.
I have pretty much trained myself to hate everything I do. It has been a continuous fear that I will never achieve anything, particularly artistically because I have told myself that I cannot do it already. Everything I've read, artists always say to believe in yourself and all that. But in my core, I have told myself that I can't.
So I think this self fullfilling prophecy is really catching up now. It's one reason I haven't been able to work on my promised Christmas presents I think. In everything I feel defeat, so why even start? Like with my Christmas pic, I look at it and all I feel is disappointment.
I want to keep trying, but I don't know how to get out of this mindset. Does anyone have any tips?
rl