now im drunk as hell on a piano bench
"she came over but wasn't too exicted, i think i could tell. of course she would never come over alone, always with a friend or some sort of comfort and this time it was her boyfriend and her boyfriends friend. i sat, counted and stared. couldnt wait and knew they couldnt wait for this to be over as if this was something to go out of there way for. i knew or i thought thats what they thought. i promise though that im mostly wrong. so they fianlly showed up. couldnt take my eyes off her, yeah and they knew that i always wanted her or to be the one she would call or talk to, or just stand by and smile. as long as she was in distance so i could hold her hand and who knows, one day maybe ill do it, shes already pulled away from me doing that once but maybe just maybe... we layed down, all of us on my tiny bed and watched some movie, something. they were enjoying it, i was just looking at the side of her face. her boyfriend and her boyfriends friend were short brown hair and thats about it nothing more. maybe she meant for it to happen or maybe not but she looked at me and smiled and she usually does that with her beautiful blue eyes and i just stare. just fucking fall. but i stopped and tryd and i KNEW, I KNEW she wanted to! that was so beautiful that she did, thank you, thank you... she continued. she kept glancing over her shoulder and looking at me more as if it was making her happy and smile just to see me, this could never happen! oh im so happy, thank you, thank you... (ill finish later)