thoughts
this is the first night that i've stayed up past 10:00 since i've been home for the summer. summer has passed by pretty fast. i'm uber stressed about the mcat, and its making me into a very unhappy person. i've been so hateful. i have all these beautiful visions of the future if i do well on the mcat...but a second later, only to realize that those visions will forever be visions if i dont do well. it depresses me. i want to get a job after i take the mcat, working at gap or something...so i can get employee's discount. i want to go shopping without feeling guilty. i want to go spend money and be happy about it. i just want to get this thing off of my chest. grrrrrrrrrr i swear, after i find out my score and if i had done well, i'm going to burn the mcat books page by page...i CANNOT wait. then again, that will only be a vision if i dont do well. grr, got to go study.