My life is a show-- a commercial for people to see how normal I am-- when I am really anything but."
[mood| 
peaceful]
[music|The Fray - Over my head ]
"I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me ... but it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst ...
And then I remember ... to relax, and not try to hold on to it. And then it flows through me like rain. And I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. Don't worry ... you will someday"
--American Beauty, Lester Burnham, after he dies.
Ah, its things like this that make me happy. They humble you and make you stop and think and stop taking the little things for granted. You realise, you're still alive, and there is so much beauty in the world that goes unnoticed until those few seconds when you stop. and you let it surround you, until it takes your breath away. You may not know it, but these moments, they change you. They mold you and shape you in little ways which makes you who you are.
It's sad that so many of us can't see the beauty in ourselves. I know I cant.
But it makes me happy to see beauty in others, and the things around me. Like when I was sitting down by the river earlier, and I was writing my poems for english by the side of the waterfall, and I felt so infinate, because it was beautiful.
I was alone there. Just me and my thoughts, and the way the sunset hit the water it was just gorgeous.
I really needed that. Just to get away for a little while.
"It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it, right? And this bag was like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in."
I wish I had people like that in my life.
It's sad when you wish your life was more like a movie, or even a movie itself.
----Maybe then it would be a bit more significant.
peaceful]
[music|The Fray - Over my head ]
"I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me ... but it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst ...
And then I remember ... to relax, and not try to hold on to it. And then it flows through me like rain. And I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. Don't worry ... you will someday"
--American Beauty, Lester Burnham, after he dies.
Ah, its things like this that make me happy. They humble you and make you stop and think and stop taking the little things for granted. You realise, you're still alive, and there is so much beauty in the world that goes unnoticed until those few seconds when you stop. and you let it surround you, until it takes your breath away. You may not know it, but these moments, they change you. They mold you and shape you in little ways which makes you who you are.
It's sad that so many of us can't see the beauty in ourselves. I know I cant.
But it makes me happy to see beauty in others, and the things around me. Like when I was sitting down by the river earlier, and I was writing my poems for english by the side of the waterfall, and I felt so infinate, because it was beautiful.
I was alone there. Just me and my thoughts, and the way the sunset hit the water it was just gorgeous.
I really needed that. Just to get away for a little while.
"It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it, right? And this bag was like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in."
I wish I had people like that in my life.
It's sad when you wish your life was more like a movie, or even a movie itself.
----Maybe then it would be a bit more significant.