as monica would say, "life is full of decisions."
vell, hello 'undead-journal'.
AAAHHHH i don't know what i want to do with my liiifffeeeeee
don't worry. it's just that little mental crisis that happens once a year. please remind me i'm not the only one, because i'm pretty sure i'm not.
i feel like, to do art (for a living) i have to be so way gung-ho about it i'll either do nothing else with my life and make it (sort of, somehow i don't see fame in my future), or do so and crash and burn. and neither sound appealing to me.
and then, to teach art (for a living) i have to be completely head-over-heels-crazy about teaching, so i'll at least be a decent teacher and not feed into a whole generation of children hating art. not that i think that i can be that influential, but you get the point.
i just don't know if i'd be a good teacher. i know that i'd care about kids and try my best, but i just don't know if i'm cut out for beauracracy. or if i'm a clear communicator. or if i'm organized or patient enough.
yes, it'd be a challenge. that's the point. i'd want a job to challenge me. but i've never had that clear feeling of knowing i was meant to be a teacher. not like some people, at least.
plus, money. hah.
i don't understand how people my age are getting married. i feel like i can't even decide what i'm going to do or want in a day from now.
AAAHHHH i don't know what i want to do with my liiifffeeeeee
don't worry. it's just that little mental crisis that happens once a year. please remind me i'm not the only one, because i'm pretty sure i'm not.
i feel like, to do art (for a living) i have to be so way gung-ho about it i'll either do nothing else with my life and make it (sort of, somehow i don't see fame in my future), or do so and crash and burn. and neither sound appealing to me.
and then, to teach art (for a living) i have to be completely head-over-heels-crazy about teaching, so i'll at least be a decent teacher and not feed into a whole generation of children hating art. not that i think that i can be that influential, but you get the point.
i just don't know if i'd be a good teacher. i know that i'd care about kids and try my best, but i just don't know if i'm cut out for beauracracy. or if i'm a clear communicator. or if i'm organized or patient enough.
yes, it'd be a challenge. that's the point. i'd want a job to challenge me. but i've never had that clear feeling of knowing i was meant to be a teacher. not like some people, at least.
plus, money. hah.
i don't understand how people my age are getting married. i feel like i can't even decide what i'm going to do or want in a day from now.