Nov 01, 2005 05:41
Things are going along smoothly with Rob. Again. They weren't last week. I nearly lost him twice. We had our first (and quite possibly only!) major bump. It's really not surprising - at the speed we were going, we were bound to get shot up in the air when we hit even a small bump. Basically, Rob couldn't accept the fact that I was still talking to people I'd slept with. I came to the conclusion that I could and would cut Eric out of my life. He'd been an ass about some stuff anyway (talking about "our trysts" while Rob was here), so it was no big loss. But then Rob got upset about Darren and I still being friends. But Rob means everything to me and I know that what we have is really special and not worth letting go of, so I held on for both of us and we worked it out. We made a lot of progress when I look back on it. He went from "I can't accept it. You should find someone who can." to "I'm trying, but what if I never can?" to "I really do love you and I'm going to try my hardest to make this work."
Sunday morning was pretty bad again; he woke up really distant and weird. But he said he needed to work it out for himself and that I shouldn't worry. He dropped us off at church and then went to do some work on his car. When he came back to pick us up, he was all happy again and he kissed me properly and I could just feel that he was "back" from wherever he'd gone. Ironically, he was reassured and had a change of mindset by talking to another girl online, who he'd been kind of interested in and was chatting with at the same time that we started chatting! LOL Fortunately, I'm not threatened or worried by that one little bit. I told him he can talk to all the girls he wants if it's to help our relationship :)
Anyway... I know it sounds like bad news, but it really isn't. It was bound to happen sooner or later, and I'm so happy that we had our first issue already and managed to work through it together and come out stronger on the other side. That just proves to me that we can and will be together, for better or for worse! Forever!
Which brings me to the original reason I started this post. LOL The rings in my new userpic are a set of bands that we ordered from ebay. We're going to exchange promise rings, since we can't get engaged yet, but want to outwardly display a symbol of the love that's in our hearts. He was going to get me one for Christmas, and I was going to get him one, too, but we both liked the idea of matching bands and we managed to find a set that we both liked and that was really reasonably priced :) We also both agreed that we don't want to wait until Christmas! LOL When I said "Do we really have to wait until Christmas?" he said "I was just thinking the same thing." Which was funny because I was expecting him to tell me to stop being so impatient ;) We just won the auction last night, and I still have to finish the checkout (they have the shipping wrong on it) and then hopefully they'll get here fast!
So yeah... that's my week in a nutshell. (Aren't you glad I wasn't posting 3 times a day and you were spared the endless details?! LOL) Oh, I didn't post about Rob meeting the kids.... I'll do that in a separate post later when I put up Halloween pics :)