I'm still here
Dear LJ.
I have not forsaken you.
I have been working, and there is no internet at work. I've been avoiding doing some doll commissions.
I've been upset by the weather that everyone else deems nice and miss the cold and the dark and all I want is rain.
I'm sorry I haven't been around. I need to get better. I
I've been sad lately. More sad than I have been for a while, for no good reason. Like I've regressed to a darker place that I haven't been to for several years and I don't know what brought me back. I just haven't been feeling well, and I haven't been near my computer, I haven't been reading LJ or Tumblr, I've been avoiding fandom because I can't stop feeling like I'm doing it all wrong all the time, I've just been spending a lot of time feeling like I want to be alone and not even sure if that's really what I want or if that's just the easiest. I read a book. It wasn't very well written, but it was nice to just read something simple and quick.
So I don't have a lot to say, I guess. Just that I'm still here, and I hope that soon my head will want to work okay again and my stomach too, and I hope everyone else is doing okay. I miss you.
I'm thinking of you.
I have not forsaken you.
I have been working, and there is no internet at work. I've been avoiding doing some doll commissions.
I've been upset by the weather that everyone else deems nice and miss the cold and the dark and all I want is rain.
I'm sorry I haven't been around. I need to get better. I
I've been sad lately. More sad than I have been for a while, for no good reason. Like I've regressed to a darker place that I haven't been to for several years and I don't know what brought me back. I just haven't been feeling well, and I haven't been near my computer, I haven't been reading LJ or Tumblr, I've been avoiding fandom because I can't stop feeling like I'm doing it all wrong all the time, I've just been spending a lot of time feeling like I want to be alone and not even sure if that's really what I want or if that's just the easiest. I read a book. It wasn't very well written, but it was nice to just read something simple and quick.
So I don't have a lot to say, I guess. Just that I'm still here, and I hope that soon my head will want to work okay again and my stomach too, and I hope everyone else is doing okay. I miss you.
I'm thinking of you.