Your Hand (One-shot)
Title: Your Hand
Pairing: ChiiTaro
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance, Angst
Summary: Ryutaro never liked letting go of Chinen's hand. Everytime they went out, he'd hold it tight, when they say their goodbye he kisses his hand. What will happen when he lets go for a mear minute?
A/N: A one-shot written in Ryutaro's POV. Enjoy :)
Why was it so hard, why? Why was it so hard for me to let go of his very hand? Ask me that question, and I, myself, do not have a good or even clear enough answer to satisfy you.
There is something about him that just makes me want to always protect him, not caring about the age difference or even the height difference. I believed he was always so vulnerable...that he was a treasure to be kept carefully. A fragile, yet beautiful piece of colorful glass...he was someone fragile.
Right now as I look at him, his figure is petite, he has quite a girly face but everything else was just so...cute, soo...fragile.
"Ryuu, what do you want to drink? The usual Caramel Macchiato? Or would you want something different?", He asked me, "Hmmm, i'll just get my usual", I smiled and he smiled back with that cute nod of his before going back to order.
It was always like this, after getting a drink at the cafe we always go to, we go off on our real date. Going wherever he wants to go. Let's just say, I'll go wherever he wants to go. He is the oldest anyways, but I spoil him quite alot.
"Ne, Ryu-chan, where do you want to go today? I keep choosing the places, this time, you choose", he smiled. I hate it when he flashes that smile at me. It seems almost deadly.
"Nah, I would be much much happier if you chose", I tapped his nose, making him giggle.
"Hnnn, okay then", he was blushing, looking down to hide the cute pink stains on his cheeks, "How about...the park? Well not the park near here, the park near my house". I...was shocked...the park? We haven't been there eversince that very day those group of girls and boys teased him because he was gay.
"A-Are you sure? Chii, you don't need to force yourself", I reassured.
"Yes, I bet it won't be that bad. It's not like anyones gonna tease me now right?". He laughed sarcastically and his smile was faint. Thats one thing I hated. Whenever he smiles like that, there is no spark, only fear, worry, sadness and confusion were present. He doesn't know this, but I can read him like a book.
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We practically agreed to go anyways. We were now walking down the very familiar sidewalk, hand in hand, he held it tighter today, I wondered "Is he scared?", I looked at his face and notice a slight spark of fear in his eyes. This was a place that traumatized him for weeks, nearly 2 months. I don't want anything bad to happen to him again.
When we got there the place was quiet, there was no one present except for us.
"Ne, Ryuu, I told you it was gonna be okay?", He smiled at me again.
"Ah!", I looked at him again, "I forgot my jacket at the cafe!", Chinen stated, tensed.
"Do you want to get it?", I asked calmly. He looked at me and nodded. I got up, fixed my clothes and out of no control at all, I accidentally grabbed his hand to strong, he wasn't even standing up yet so he tripped and hit his knee, I panicked and got down at his level.
"Chii! Are you okay? I'm so sorry!"
"No, it's fine, it's just a scratch ne?", He giggled even though a few tears escaped his eyes, "Ne, can you still get my jacket? I'll just sit here.", He smiled. I helped him sit up on the bench, asked him once more about him staying alone and me going to get his jacket. He just replied saying "Daijobu, Daijobu Ryu-chan~". So, I thought, okay then, I'll just hurry up. But...
...I let go of his hand...
Big mistake...
When I arrived back at the park, he wasn't there, I panicked! I ran to every area near that very park, I even asked people who lived around the place, including Chinen's parents! I ran and ran...my legs were turning back on me, but I did not give up. I wrapped his jacket around my waist and tied it tight. I continued to run...Until I passed this one alley way...At first I thought, oh dear God, please don't let it be him. But it was...
"H-Hey! Let him go!", I shouted running toward the group of people surrounding Chinen. When they moved I thought I saw the devil. It was that very boy that used to tease Chinen when he was small. Coming back to haunt I assume?
Chinen was held back by a few guys obviously larger than Chinen, his face had a few bruises which probably meant he was beaten up...My and his worst nightmare sort of came true...
Right when I was about to state something else they ran away. I wondered why, but maybe it's because they knew my dad was a policeman.
"Chinen are you okay!?", I ran next to him and helped him up, "I'm fine, Ryu-chan, ah! You got my jacket!", he smiled. This is what I love about him, even in pain, with just me around, he instantly starts smiling, but it may also be scary...
"Are you okay?", I asked once more. He looked at me with a worry smile..he pointed at his leg and said, "My leg hurts...I think something hit it..." I pulled up his pants and saw that his leg was bruised badly...
"N-Ne..Ryu-chan? I don't feel so...w-well..." he was swaying side to side so I panicked. I picked him up and placed him on my back and ran to the nearest hospital. As soon as I went in, they told me to wait in the waiting area outside the emergency room.
Obviously I panicked, is he having a heart attack? Will he be okay? I was scared, but I can't imagine the fear running through him right now, thats if he can really feel it. I waited a few hours, but for me, hours felt like days...even years. Chinen's mom arrived but Chinen still did not wake up, she told me to be the one to take care of him for the night, and that if the doctor says he can go home he'll just stay at my place...
The doctor came a few minutes after his mom left. He told me that Chinen fainted due to panicking, but apparently he'll be fine. I was happy, I was happy that he would be talking and laughing around with me again.
"You can see him if you want. We'll keep him overnight to observe", the doctor then left. I stood up, released a sigh of relief and started walking toward the emergency room.
"Chii...", I breathed out, he was awake
"Ryu-chan!", he smiled and told me to lay down next to him on the bed
"Anou...Chii, people might be looking...", I can't help but know i'll feel embarassed
"Close the curtain then silly~!", He giggled, ah~ the giggle is back.
"Oh...right", if I could bang my head on the wall multiple times, I would. I closed the curtain and layed down next to him, when I did, I immediately felt his head on my shoulder.
"Ne...Ryu-chan? Thanks for being there for me"
"It's fine, anything for the person I love...". I knew he was smiling and maybe even blushing. He always tells me that everytime I say sweet things to him, he'll immediately smile and blush.
After a few more minutes he fell asleep. He always looks angelic when he sleeps...it's almost like he himself is an angel sent from above, for me that is...
Call me selfish but I don't want anyone else to touch him. Sure, I sound possessive, but what happens if someone touches the one you love? Other than yourself? Would you be happy? I wouldn't, because I feel like it is my duty to take care of him. My duty to love him. And my duty to hold his hand...
"Mmmm, I love you Ryu-chan~", he mumbled and all I could do was smile. I slowly held his hand and I can already feel butterflies in my stomach when I felt him tighten the grip. This time, I know, I cannot and will not ever let go of his hand again.
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