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I wanted to write something here for a while, but i was just too busy or too stressed.
A month ago (or so) my dad started having problems with his leg (some of you might know that a year ago he had surgery and lost almost 1m of intestine cause he had like a stroke there) so yeah, he almost dies, that kind of surgery is like 1 out of 100 come out alive. Im still grateful for the doctors and even if we now are drowning on debts, i dont regret anything, he is alive. But anyways... leaving that behind, a month ago he started with some pain on his leg, like i said, and we thought it was just something normal, right? still after what hapenned we didnt want to leave anything just in the air. Yes im jobless now and no one, and i say NOT ONE SOUL HERE, would give me a job. So what do you do when you have no incomes? well... you know... i had to get rid of lots of stuff, and i really didnt mind, of course you might think about it but when it comes to health and specially my family´s health i would give my life. So yeah i sold stuff and gave to my dad so he could go to the doctor (i live with my parents btw XD) He went and the doctor said he had an artery blocked, that its exactly what happenned to his intestines but this one is kinda just starting. He said is common and by the way he looked at him, my dad was really ok, nothing to worry. Worst case scenario he might need surgery, but first we needed to see if with normal meds and exercise this changes. He also went to see the specialist and she was very positive.
So yeah im happy for that, but well.. meds cost and he had to get some injections really expensive ones, so there goes more sutff.
I rant about this a lot on twitter lately, and im thankful for my friends there cause they helped. I really didnt want to bother mom or my sister with all my stress and depression crap cause well we have enough, and we have to be strong and we have to keep moving forward. My girls over there helped me and im really thankful for them.
Right now it has calmed down a little. He still need more months to see if its actually working, but its ok, this takes time. And meanwhile im trying to get money from everywhere! We as family well you have to help with everything right? we had to change even more or way of eating, we already ate organic stuff but now it has to be even more strict. We started eating chia seeds, which it has omega3, and it might actually help me with my thyroid problem, so it helps everyone XD
More natural stuff, no meat, more fruits, more vegetables, organic oils... all of that. So as always you have to see the positive, this might actually help all of us to have a better life, right?.
Actually because of this i started to meditate, and be more in contact with my spiritual guides and in consequence i learn how to clean my house of bad energies. It helped, but i think i need to do it again D: this house was alone for like 4 years, and all the ppl that lived here just left with debts and deaths. This house already took my grandpa, my cat and almost my grandma and dad. We´re always sick and money doesnt last, so maybe we´re carring with all the past energies and its not helping at all. We even tried to move but its like the house wont let us, theres always something happening that stops us.
This might sound crazy for some, but nor for me, i´ve learn so many stuff lately, and it helped with my stress and depression. Just to be in contact with yourself and be spiritual, believing in the power of the universe and in your own power is very important now for me, you´re the only one that can change your life, dont leave it in someone elses hands... you have the power to change it. So thats what i did, and thats what im learning.
Sorry if im just rambling, i just wanted to share this and to actually let it out. Im not as stressed as i was a week ago, i actually let it all out on a friend i have on twitter XD and she´s amazing, she might not see this LOL but she helped me alot!
So anyways... thats all~
Hope you guys had a good weekend and wait for my next post! cause its a great post XD
thanks for reading! <3
A month ago (or so) my dad started having problems with his leg (some of you might know that a year ago he had surgery and lost almost 1m of intestine cause he had like a stroke there) so yeah, he almost dies, that kind of surgery is like 1 out of 100 come out alive. Im still grateful for the doctors and even if we now are drowning on debts, i dont regret anything, he is alive. But anyways... leaving that behind, a month ago he started with some pain on his leg, like i said, and we thought it was just something normal, right? still after what hapenned we didnt want to leave anything just in the air. Yes im jobless now and no one, and i say NOT ONE SOUL HERE, would give me a job. So what do you do when you have no incomes? well... you know... i had to get rid of lots of stuff, and i really didnt mind, of course you might think about it but when it comes to health and specially my family´s health i would give my life. So yeah i sold stuff and gave to my dad so he could go to the doctor (i live with my parents btw XD) He went and the doctor said he had an artery blocked, that its exactly what happenned to his intestines but this one is kinda just starting. He said is common and by the way he looked at him, my dad was really ok, nothing to worry. Worst case scenario he might need surgery, but first we needed to see if with normal meds and exercise this changes. He also went to see the specialist and she was very positive.
So yeah im happy for that, but well.. meds cost and he had to get some injections really expensive ones, so there goes more sutff.
I rant about this a lot on twitter lately, and im thankful for my friends there cause they helped. I really didnt want to bother mom or my sister with all my stress and depression crap cause well we have enough, and we have to be strong and we have to keep moving forward. My girls over there helped me and im really thankful for them.
Right now it has calmed down a little. He still need more months to see if its actually working, but its ok, this takes time. And meanwhile im trying to get money from everywhere! We as family well you have to help with everything right? we had to change even more or way of eating, we already ate organic stuff but now it has to be even more strict. We started eating chia seeds, which it has omega3, and it might actually help me with my thyroid problem, so it helps everyone XD
More natural stuff, no meat, more fruits, more vegetables, organic oils... all of that. So as always you have to see the positive, this might actually help all of us to have a better life, right?.
Actually because of this i started to meditate, and be more in contact with my spiritual guides and in consequence i learn how to clean my house of bad energies. It helped, but i think i need to do it again D: this house was alone for like 4 years, and all the ppl that lived here just left with debts and deaths. This house already took my grandpa, my cat and almost my grandma and dad. We´re always sick and money doesnt last, so maybe we´re carring with all the past energies and its not helping at all. We even tried to move but its like the house wont let us, theres always something happening that stops us.
This might sound crazy for some, but nor for me, i´ve learn so many stuff lately, and it helped with my stress and depression. Just to be in contact with yourself and be spiritual, believing in the power of the universe and in your own power is very important now for me, you´re the only one that can change your life, dont leave it in someone elses hands... you have the power to change it. So thats what i did, and thats what im learning.
Sorry if im just rambling, i just wanted to share this and to actually let it out. Im not as stressed as i was a week ago, i actually let it all out on a friend i have on twitter XD and she´s amazing, she might not see this LOL but she helped me alot!
So anyways... thats all~
Hope you guys had a good weekend and wait for my next post! cause its a great post XD
thanks for reading! <3