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I know I just posted but.
Fuck I'm so upset...What the hell. I just don't know what to do right now. So I'm writing. I'm just lost. because I thought things were going so well. Blah where are my friends. I feel like I barely have any friends anymore. What the fuck am I doing. I was so counting on him. What the fuck. It's just, maybe I shouldn't be upset about it. But dude. I've been wanting to go there for so long. And I gave it to him like a month ago. Does he not even care. I think he just hates me. I think I just hate myself. It's like there are so many things about myself I love and I usually do love myself but dude, some people just bring it down so much. They just make me feel like shit. It's like it's so easy for them. And I know I shouldn't let it affect me but what are you supposed to do after awhile. They were supposed to be important to you. The people who are important to you, it matters what they think. If it didn't then things wouldn't happen so much.
Fuck.
This is me being completely helpless.
Where do you go from there?
so can you hear this, the fake sound of progress
Fuck I'm so upset...What the hell. I just don't know what to do right now. So I'm writing. I'm just lost. because I thought things were going so well. Blah where are my friends. I feel like I barely have any friends anymore. What the fuck am I doing. I was so counting on him. What the fuck. It's just, maybe I shouldn't be upset about it. But dude. I've been wanting to go there for so long. And I gave it to him like a month ago. Does he not even care. I think he just hates me. I think I just hate myself. It's like there are so many things about myself I love and I usually do love myself but dude, some people just bring it down so much. They just make me feel like shit. It's like it's so easy for them. And I know I shouldn't let it affect me but what are you supposed to do after awhile. They were supposed to be important to you. The people who are important to you, it matters what they think. If it didn't then things wouldn't happen so much.
Fuck.
This is me being completely helpless.
Where do you go from there?
so can you hear this, the fake sound of progress