I'm sure I've been missed... *fart*
I haven't been around for what seems like forever. Well, I'm back I think.
Nothing bad has happened, and I'm doing okay; I just didn't feel like getting on here.
Nothing spectacular has happened lately, either. I pretty much suck. You know, when someone's gone for a while, and you expect them to come back with wonderful stories of the adventures they've had... well you're not getting any of that here.
The only really big thing that's going on right now --that doesn't involve stupid shit at work-- is that I'm trying to work up the guts to tell Mike that I Love Him. I've told him in writing (haha, that sounds like I made up some contract or something), but I've never actually SAID IT. Every time I open my mouth to do it, I get nervous, then end up not saying anything. I think he's done the same thing a few times, too, though, so I don't feel stupid.
And I'm not looking for *stupid girly-girl voice* "THE PERFECT MOMENT!!! OMG!!!!!" I couldn't care less where we are or what we're doing when it's finally said, I just want to be able to get it out without getting nervous! My guess is that, when I finally do say it, it'll be without me thinking about it; without me thinking about wanting to say it, it'll just pop out before I have time to catch it and stuff it back down my throat because I'm nervous.
And when he says it to me, I think I'll piss my pants. I get stupid-giddy at just the thought of hearing him say it, and I know it will be ten-fold when I actually do hear it. I've not ever gotten excited like this before. Sure, I was excited and happy and all the usuals before, but this is totally different from the others. The others were even different from each other (obviously since you don't love any two people in the exact same way), but it feels like they were more similar than this is to either of them.
At the moment I can't even describe how different it feels.
Nothing bad has happened, and I'm doing okay; I just didn't feel like getting on here.
Nothing spectacular has happened lately, either. I pretty much suck. You know, when someone's gone for a while, and you expect them to come back with wonderful stories of the adventures they've had... well you're not getting any of that here.
The only really big thing that's going on right now --that doesn't involve stupid shit at work-- is that I'm trying to work up the guts to tell Mike that I Love Him. I've told him in writing (haha, that sounds like I made up some contract or something), but I've never actually SAID IT. Every time I open my mouth to do it, I get nervous, then end up not saying anything. I think he's done the same thing a few times, too, though, so I don't feel stupid.
And I'm not looking for *stupid girly-girl voice* "THE PERFECT MOMENT!!! OMG!!!!!" I couldn't care less where we are or what we're doing when it's finally said, I just want to be able to get it out without getting nervous! My guess is that, when I finally do say it, it'll be without me thinking about it; without me thinking about wanting to say it, it'll just pop out before I have time to catch it and stuff it back down my throat because I'm nervous.
And when he says it to me, I think I'll piss my pants. I get stupid-giddy at just the thought of hearing him say it, and I know it will be ten-fold when I actually do hear it. I've not ever gotten excited like this before. Sure, I was excited and happy and all the usuals before, but this is totally different from the others. The others were even different from each other (obviously since you don't love any two people in the exact same way), but it feels like they were more similar than this is to either of them.
At the moment I can't even describe how different it feels.