Fin! Finito! Finished! Das Ende!
After trying to make a relationship work and failing several times, Julie and I have split up and are going our separate ways. We've tried to reduce the intensity of our relationship a couple of times in hopes of finding a workable common ground where we could enjoy the things that really worked (read: sex). But each time we failed -- mainly because we never got the distance we needed to untangle our emotions.
In many senses we were right for each other, but in so many others we were absolutely horrible for each other. I don't want to let go of the absolutely amazingly good things, but the horrible aspects are cutting my soul to shreds.
After 12 years of being in relationships, its time to take a break and let the Mayhem & Chaos Coordinator stand on his own. Its time to remember what it means to be myself and not to be a part of "Rob & X".
And with this I conclude that even though 2008 was painful, my mission for 2008 is fully complete. I stand on my own, in my own apartment; Jean is now my BFF and I have successfully stepped out of her shadow. I've rediscovered my sexuality.
I'm in much better a shape than late 2007 when I set out to change my life. In a few weeks the pain will subside and I'll be ready to explore life as my new self. In the meantime, I'll focus on writing some code for MusicBrainz and the iPhone.
2009, here I come!
In many senses we were right for each other, but in so many others we were absolutely horrible for each other. I don't want to let go of the absolutely amazingly good things, but the horrible aspects are cutting my soul to shreds.
After 12 years of being in relationships, its time to take a break and let the Mayhem & Chaos Coordinator stand on his own. Its time to remember what it means to be myself and not to be a part of "Rob & X".
And with this I conclude that even though 2008 was painful, my mission for 2008 is fully complete. I stand on my own, in my own apartment; Jean is now my BFF and I have successfully stepped out of her shadow. I've rediscovered my sexuality.
I'm in much better a shape than late 2007 when I set out to change my life. In a few weeks the pain will subside and I'll be ready to explore life as my new self. In the meantime, I'll focus on writing some code for MusicBrainz and the iPhone.
2009, here I come!