congratulate the stupid polack girl
I hate myself right now. Everything I've been holding up inside has been threatening to explode. I think I made Tony hate me permanantly today. It will probably be better for everyone all around, especially since he's about to start a whole new chapter of his life with someone else. I also imagine it will be a relief for him to finally be free from my sick sad desperation. I just couldn't take it any more. I can only break something so many times before it's just not possible to repair it. I need to let this go. It's not healthy for anyone involved, particularly myself. The jeans I bought to celebrate being newly skinny can now be pulled off of my ass without being unbuttoned. This actually frightened me a little. The last time I was this thin, I was about to have a nervous breakdown and those are SO unpleasant.
between work these past few days and my slightly drunken bravado last night that resulted in yours truly getting a pretty good smackdown from Koz, I'm really beat up. I'm all cut up and scraped and bruised. I even got a headbutt right in the mouth. Then again I also did hit him in the face too. I was taken back to my days of playground beatings for a moment. I had a really smart mouth when I was little and I got my ass whooped for it. But I can take a hit well now. I'm trying to use this as an analogy for how I need to proceed with life.
between work these past few days and my slightly drunken bravado last night that resulted in yours truly getting a pretty good smackdown from Koz, I'm really beat up. I'm all cut up and scraped and bruised. I even got a headbutt right in the mouth. Then again I also did hit him in the face too. I was taken back to my days of playground beatings for a moment. I had a really smart mouth when I was little and I got my ass whooped for it. But I can take a hit well now. I'm trying to use this as an analogy for how I need to proceed with life.