Take a deep breath. It's going to be okay.
It's odd how different it is seeing a doctor versus seeing a nurse.
Maybe it's just my particular doctor. I don't know.
With my doctor it's like being on the stand, I feel judged and uncomfortable.
I don't really get any definite answers. She just scribbles in the chart about what, you know not, and gives you the occasional side way glance and nod.
She always seems nervous which makes me nervous, and it's almost like she's trying her hardest to not make me cry but then I think why does she think I would cry?
C-A-N-C-E-R.
I know what you're thinking. The problem is obvious.
She's a woman.
I've never had a man doctor that I remember. And I think I've only had one.
And he left scars.
The nurse however, the nurse was like a breath of fresh air.
They are definitely better at working with people.
Granted I'm a bit biased.
but she listened to my questions and concerns and gave me answers instead of leaving me in the lurch.
What really impressed me is when she left the room she'd tell me exactly what she was going to do while she was gone. "I'm gonna look at your pee"
So that usually long uncomfortable waiting time isn't spent thinking
"what is she doing? why is it taking so long? have they found something wrong? it's cancer! she's looking for a specialist. funeral arrangements! do I want to be cremated? wait. is she seeing someone else at the same time?!"
Maybe that's just me,
but its the waiting that makes doctors offices unbearable.
Oh this imagination of mine.
Anyway For the first time I felt reassured.
I think maybe that's all everyone is looking for.
A little reassurance that we're on the right track.
Most of the time I leave a doctors office with more questions than answers, and more anxiety then when I left. Is it so hard to say "test results are normal" instead of never letting you know? I hate the "waiting for the telephone" game where they'll only call if something's wrong.
It could be days, weeks later, it could be never!
I can't live with that kind of stress.
Rest easy, it turns out coffee is quite good for you.
perhaps we'll go for a cup someday.
Cheers.
-May
Maybe it's just my particular doctor. I don't know.
With my doctor it's like being on the stand, I feel judged and uncomfortable.
I don't really get any definite answers. She just scribbles in the chart about what, you know not, and gives you the occasional side way glance and nod.
She always seems nervous which makes me nervous, and it's almost like she's trying her hardest to not make me cry but then I think why does she think I would cry?
C-A-N-C-E-R.
I know what you're thinking. The problem is obvious.
She's a woman.
I've never had a man doctor that I remember. And I think I've only had one.
And he left scars.
The nurse however, the nurse was like a breath of fresh air.
They are definitely better at working with people.
Granted I'm a bit biased.
but she listened to my questions and concerns and gave me answers instead of leaving me in the lurch.
What really impressed me is when she left the room she'd tell me exactly what she was going to do while she was gone. "I'm gonna look at your pee"
So that usually long uncomfortable waiting time isn't spent thinking
"what is she doing? why is it taking so long? have they found something wrong? it's cancer! she's looking for a specialist. funeral arrangements! do I want to be cremated? wait. is she seeing someone else at the same time?!"
Maybe that's just me,
but its the waiting that makes doctors offices unbearable.
Oh this imagination of mine.
Anyway For the first time I felt reassured.
I think maybe that's all everyone is looking for.
A little reassurance that we're on the right track.
Most of the time I leave a doctors office with more questions than answers, and more anxiety then when I left. Is it so hard to say "test results are normal" instead of never letting you know? I hate the "waiting for the telephone" game where they'll only call if something's wrong.
It could be days, weeks later, it could be never!
I can't live with that kind of stress.
Rest easy, it turns out coffee is quite good for you.
perhaps we'll go for a cup someday.
Cheers.
-May