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I can't believe its been so many months since I have written. I guess it felt pointless to write since my life is still the same. And who wants to write the same thing day after day. I'm still sick, we still don't know why, I'm still stuck at home all day. Oh wait, one thing has changed, I even had to stop doing Passion Parties because I started blacking out every single day. So that's new. At least that problem has recently been solved, the cause was one of the meds I was on. So now the new problem is constant nausea and pure sheer exhaustion. And I'm not pregnant, so that's not the cause.
Seriously, all of these problems are seriously getting old. Seriously! I just want to feel good enough to work again! But these stupid health problems are seriously limiting anything I could do! I'm losing friends left and right. Obviously they weren't real friends if they'll ditch me over something I can't control. Its better it happened now then later. Nothing is tying me to this spot anymore. I'm not in school, all the people that live here I wouldn't really miss. And the couple that I would miss, well, I know we'd stay in contact. I can do Passion Parties almost anywhere once my body is up and running again.
Which brings me to why I started this in the first place. I might have a job opportunity, as well as Jeromy. At a gorgeous resort in the mountains in Alberta. I'd be working in a sit down job, and starting only part time. Its definitely something I could handle right now! And we'd live on the resort, so if anything ever happens and Jeromy isn't there, other people would be there to help me. I have a friend that works there, and she told me about possible openings, so off our resumes went. And now we wait.
Now I feel nervous and antsy. The thought of moving to such a gorgeous place excites me, but moving is considered one of the big stress-ors in life. Probably even more so with how sucky my health is. With the low cost of room and board, as well as never having to use the car.... we're going to get out of debt!!!!!! That's the most exciting part for me! And maybe once we see that debt going down, that stress-or will disappear from my life and I might start feeling better! Well, lets hope so anyways! All the debt that as accumulated from me being sick, all the meds, living on one paycheck.... we can pay it off! Now THAT is something to get excited about! I'm used to being the responsible one, I've always balanced money well, and to be in the position of struggling to make ends meet every month... That's hard.
Since it will only cost $2.50 per meal, no matter what you eat... We'll never go without food, we won't have to live on bare minimum. I can have a coffee and not worry that it will break our budget. I won't dread bills coming in every month. I'll have no problem answering the phone, because I know its not bill collectors.
We have to get this job, we just have to. If we don't, I don't know what we'll do... We can't continue on the path that we're on now.... Its slowly killing us. So we just have to get this job, we have to.....
Seriously, all of these problems are seriously getting old. Seriously! I just want to feel good enough to work again! But these stupid health problems are seriously limiting anything I could do! I'm losing friends left and right. Obviously they weren't real friends if they'll ditch me over something I can't control. Its better it happened now then later. Nothing is tying me to this spot anymore. I'm not in school, all the people that live here I wouldn't really miss. And the couple that I would miss, well, I know we'd stay in contact. I can do Passion Parties almost anywhere once my body is up and running again.
Which brings me to why I started this in the first place. I might have a job opportunity, as well as Jeromy. At a gorgeous resort in the mountains in Alberta. I'd be working in a sit down job, and starting only part time. Its definitely something I could handle right now! And we'd live on the resort, so if anything ever happens and Jeromy isn't there, other people would be there to help me. I have a friend that works there, and she told me about possible openings, so off our resumes went. And now we wait.
Now I feel nervous and antsy. The thought of moving to such a gorgeous place excites me, but moving is considered one of the big stress-ors in life. Probably even more so with how sucky my health is. With the low cost of room and board, as well as never having to use the car.... we're going to get out of debt!!!!!! That's the most exciting part for me! And maybe once we see that debt going down, that stress-or will disappear from my life and I might start feeling better! Well, lets hope so anyways! All the debt that as accumulated from me being sick, all the meds, living on one paycheck.... we can pay it off! Now THAT is something to get excited about! I'm used to being the responsible one, I've always balanced money well, and to be in the position of struggling to make ends meet every month... That's hard.
Since it will only cost $2.50 per meal, no matter what you eat... We'll never go without food, we won't have to live on bare minimum. I can have a coffee and not worry that it will break our budget. I won't dread bills coming in every month. I'll have no problem answering the phone, because I know its not bill collectors.
We have to get this job, we just have to. If we don't, I don't know what we'll do... We can't continue on the path that we're on now.... Its slowly killing us. So we just have to get this job, we have to.....